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Safiah Hassan
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Email: sufiyyahbalqis@hotmail.com
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STUNNED
Thursday, November 27, 2008 @ 1:35 PM
mood: STUNNED
music: GRADUATION-Vit C
Im left speechless.
Nonetheless i will give all out for the last one.
And MEL, remember tomorrow's date okay.
Bring CAMMY along. Im bringing BOYFIE ( laki pertama along ).
sakits hati.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008 @ 7:02 AM
mood: A LIL BIT CHEERY
music: I WANTED YOU
Lets just say that i poured my heart and soul to the only ONE.
i cried my hearts out seeking for the best.
Im up and going for study now.
Fiza its,
PAS ( Psychology and Sociology ) Brain Cells VS NS3 ( Nursing Science 3) Brain Cells.
Dulu time baru nak start skolah, bery the hard.com/sap to even remember the short forms.
Sekarang chickenMcNugget.
Waiting patiently for Thursday afternoon date with sMelly.
Sheesha? Anytakers?Labels: sakits sekalis
trying to keep up
Tuesday, November 25, 2008 @ 10:08 PM
mood: SMALL HEART SAYING
music: IS IT TRUE
music: IS IT TRUE
sometimes how many time you deny what your heart feels,
and how many time you try to make it feel right.
but it will never be.
i have that old cry baby/ignoring friends/staying afar/keeping quiet syndrome back.
i'm not sure why.
is it me or i need to really do some reflections on how to be a good friend?
maybe being myself isnt just enough?
that's it.
PAS brain cells is fighting to replace NS3 brain cells.
DISASTER
@ 5:49 PM
mood: BROKEN AND FELL TERIBBLY
music: TEARS
music: TEARS
Im dread.
Abah fetched me from school.
Tak terlarat nak balik sendiri.
If i were to bring my bike, i would have left it in school.
I hate feeling LOST and as though i had not made my revision.
Like seriously i was shagged to the max as though i was doing my last paper.
I bathed but i looked as though i didnt bathed for a week.
And mind you, i look like shit.
If D were to saw me today, tak nak mengaku mataer agaknya.
Anyways, i guess i should have stayed and home and relax myself and calm myself.
I can't head to school early.
Be it 30 mins early.
Anxiety begin to strike me and i begin to panic.
As though the whole world turn on me and didnt leave me a space for myself to breathe.
Im not sure why though.
Where the hell did PID pop out?
Fuck.
And taking NSL for granted.
This is the cause of it.
I can't even answer;
"How would you know if the baby has latched properly on the mother's breast?"
Fuck ahk question peh senang and i beeelaaarrrdddyyyy cant answer.
ps: NS3 GONE
Labels: happy birthday hud hud.
1 down 3 more
@ 10:30 AM
mood: A QUATER RELEIVED
music: CRY-RIHANNA
music: CRY-RIHANNA
I'm done with ELAHA.
war with NS3 and NSL.
HIATUS
Sunday, November 23, 2008 @ 12:39 AM
mood: LEMAH GEMALAI
music: SANDARAN HATI-LETTO
PENATS.
WORTH IT.
NGANTOK.
lethargy feeling
Thursday, November 20, 2008 @ 7:32 PM
mood: MUGGING
music: I WANTED YOU
music: I WANTED YOU
Starting my daily revision soon. Common tests is next week and i'm unprepared for a thing.Insyallah. God is willing when someone's gives her best and try till the last moment.
D is stress right now. He isnt the one stress usually. It has been me.
But the thing that make him stress would be money & family.
Yup, currently would be the money issue. I guess he feels pressurised.
I'm currently trying my best not to let him feel more pressurised by the issues happening to me in school.
I guess one of the ways of releasing my tension & frustation is towards my ne LOVE.
yes the REBANA.
With the help of Kiki, Dayah & Sharul, i wanna improve on my Tepuk 10 Beats.
Another thing to note is that, D's P.O.P is coming soon.
10 dec 2008.
His big day is also coming.
And it falls on Hari Raya Haji.
This year is really full of celebration.
1 oct 2008, our 7th together.
Which falls on Hari Raya AidilFitri.
Lists:
Wallet
Im left with one more thing and im done.
Meanwhile i'm off revising and memorising my notes.
PS: agrees with dayah. im sick. i want my teddy please.
contradicting
Wednesday, November 19, 2008 @ 4:21 PM
mood: JUST LOOKING
music: REBANA BEAT
music: REBANA BEAT
Something that i got from people's webpage.
"i can't believe you were that STUPID.
OH MY GOODNESS!!
OH MY GOODNESS!!
YOU ARE SUCH A HORRIBLE YOUNG KIDDO!
FULL OF CRAPS AND EXCUSES!
YES, NOW THAT I WANT THAT.
I REALLY MEAN IT.
IT'S KINDA STUPID EY?
REALLY.YOU REALLY MAKE A FOOL OF YOURSELF.
MY GOODNESS. YOU'RE CRAP!
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT
I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU WANT THAT.
HAHAHA. NIGHT NIGHT LOSER!
sometimes these human beings are just too damn stupid.
not wanting the best for themselves.
once had been destroyed, yet still wanting to be that way.
WOOOAHHHH, that's totally too stupid for you i believe.
you are sucha disgrace to the whole wide world.really, you sucha disgrace to the muslim society.
no worries, i'm fine here.i'm not sad, disappointed.
no i'm not.
i laughed after i had a convo with the person.
HA HA HA. DISGRACE!!signing out "
I'm sorry but, i ain't agree with this entry.
everytime when you love that someone, u accept his / her flaws with no conditions.
but after all disappointments and the heartache.
what's all this?
I'm saying either one is doing the right thing.
but is it fair?
I guess i've learnt my mistake. I did my mistake by spreading stories.
Eventhough its the correct one, and the other party already had forgiven.
However, why am i judged because of that?
I'm fine with it anyway.
Im not marrying either one of you.
subhanallah.
Updates
Saturday, November 15, 2008 @ 12:28 PM
mood: CALMING SELF
music: BLEEDING LOVE
music: BLEEDING LOVE
THEORY:
After 2 RTP classes done back to back. Next was RTE.
Alhamdulillah, target 90% achieved.
Next step was to book RTT.
The earliest waas 18dec08 / 20dec08.
Choose 20dec08-Saturday.
I have attachments on 18dec08. Plan ahead nanti tak pasal-pasal cancel.
So call me kancheong or anything.
I have also book 2 RTP classes before the RTT.
Just a warm up class before doing RTT, so im prepared.
Practical:
I'm slower with practical classes. But i realise this, learn your mistakes now and not on the road.
:)
Everytime my number was called upon, i would just smile.
Says sorry without fail.
1.1 cleared.
1.2 retaking on Monday-17nov08.
My problem have been stalling the bike.
Darn i hate clutch. Buat darah nyirap jer. Changing gears alhamdulillah.
First time, kelam kabut sia.. throttle tak close terus clutch then break.
Kecoh. Give me a headache.
Why i take it during weekdays, i'm just afraid i will loose my momentum and forget everything.
So monday my class would be 1410hours-1550hours.
Friendship:
I might have a busy scheldue.
But insyallah. I will make it up.
I don't want to give any promises. Insyallah.
PS: COMMON TEST COMMON TEST COMMON TEST SYNDROME
TIRED
Friday, November 14, 2008 @ 4:37 PM
mood: COOLING OFF
music: PANAS PANAS
music: PANAS PANAS
Whatever.
Whatever happends i won't start cerita here.
Another reminder for all people out there; kalau orang cakap
" Aku maafkan kau, tapi ingat cerita ini start sini habis ini.
Kalau aku dengar lagi. Aku tak agak-agak cari kau. "
Don't ever believe.
Summarising my poly life in year 2. It makes me realise on who your true friends really are.
The one that will be there for you when your in tears.
The one for in joy.
The one that will hug you when they meet.
Read this phrase in Eera's blog, it reminded me of someone that came in life.
"This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech, for the nights when you've returned home alone, for the nights when you've seen from across the room him leaning a little too close, or standing a little too near, or talking a little too softly for the girl he's with to be a random hookup."
I guess most of my close friends knows. Even BESTY, the one i seldom meet.
Yes. I MISS MARINAH MOHDAR.
A guy i assume was the ONE for me. Talked to him everynight without fail.
Even if the cell battery goes flat, i will use the home phone and continue.
Sleepless nights due to the conversations. The hopes & dreams.
Everything.
The tears, the laughter, the emotions.
Its over. You were never mine to start with.
I alhamdulillah, i found the real person.
The person, who meant what he said.
To accept me for who i am.
ABDUL AZIM ABDUL RAZAK.
thanks love.
LOST
@ 6:51 AM
mood: LOST
music: TEARS
Im currently searching for HER.
The bubbly/laughing gas/loud/hyper/crazy girl that use to be there.
The girl that always laugh and doesn't care what people around her have to say.
i miss you SITI SAFIAH MD HASSAN.
do come back.
please do.
PAS SYNDROME
Wednesday, November 12, 2008 @ 1:29 AM
mood: HYBERNATING
music: PUSPA-ST12
I should already be sleeping right about 2 hours ago. But why im still up?
Cause tomorrow morning im heading to polyclinic. Adik have her Tarian performance at her school and wants me to video it for her group. Okay since my BOYFIE haven't been giving services at any of HER events.
Anyway, i need the time off school. Kepala feel so berat.
Started my PAS assignment.
What have i done so far?
1) Case Scenario
2) List down the management plan
Yup covered both of this so far. I have yet to finish P's balance sheet for this thursday meeting.
ya allah.
Tonigh i have 2 RTP and 1 RTE. My goodness. Guess what time bf called?
8.45pm, which was after his bath. Which he spends most of the time talking to his BUNK MATES. Guess what time he wanted to hang up?
9.15pm, which i think was UNREASONABLE.
when it comes to my part of the story. when im tired with post-training syndrome he will nag.
now, when im utterly free he is not even making effort of it.
Ya allah. This is really getting into my nerve.
So the plan for tomorrow?
None.
PLAN:
1) PAS DONE
2) NSL PRACTICAL ( MEMORIZE )
3) P's BALANCE SHEET
3) P's BALANCE SHEET
IMM
Tuesday, November 11, 2008 @ 5:04 PM
mood: HYPER-MOODY
music: KAU AKAN KEMBALI
music: KAU AKAN KEMBALI
Sunday
Madrasah per normal. Had Arab Imlak which was patheticly 8 words.
ya allah.
8 words pun susah sey. i'm not into arab.
the only phrase i know in arab is ; " Ana Uhibbuk Fillah "
Wanna know whats the meaning of it? Do ask me.
After that accompany D to return the DVD that he borrowed before he booked in later part of the day.
He kept saying that everytime he booked in to camp, there would be no one at home for him.
Sabar D, 10 dec. The much awaited date for you.
I need idea for his birthday.
And guess what, i forgot my guy is turning 21 this year. Mati-mati ingat he was only 20.
Anyways.
Reached home, Jijot, Ibu and Adik was ready to go out and fetched nyayi at Yew Tee.
I was still in Kurung & Tudung.
Head over to Yew Tee in a cab.
Ibu, Adik & Nyayi took a cab back to IMM.
Me and Jijot went via BUS & TRAIN.
Head to FOX to get the sweater that was on SALE.
HOEWEVER, that someone just made me turn off.
I FEEL SO FRUSTRATED & ANGRY.
" Ah, Beli laa 20 atau 30 helai skali . "
What was that for sey?
WHATEVER.
MINI SUPRISE CELEBRATION
Monday, November 10, 2008 @ 11:39 PM
mood: HYPER
music: SUICIDAL
MINI BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION FOR IRMA & EERA.
For the BELATED & ADVANCE.
I think irma knew that we sang for her.
But i guess EERA was caught off guard.
Mati-mati ingat for IRMA jer.
Anyways.
I thanks everybody who make it joyable.
Next would be the december babies.
Hmmm let me see.
Planning + Planning + Planning
I knew IRMA was pissed cause i told her i couldn't come for training.
Mel ditched her lunch, pasal nak teman belikan the suprise things.
Last-Last Irma was the Hyper kuku.
Hehe Anyways.
Today training was gelak.com/sap.
i was laughing all the way.
Dari mula, complain tak rasa air-con to the ragam of BUKAK KETIAK.
Pelik tul.
Too baju yang kapai-kapai ngan ehem-ehem.
Wah lao wey! Tak perlu sia.
Let you enjoys today celebrationg & training pictures.
Let you enjoys today celebrationg & training pictures.
ALL THE WAY
Saturday, November 8, 2008 @ 10:14 PM
mood: SUKA NAIK MOTOR
music: POS KEMPAS KEMPOS
BUAT RAKAN-RAKAN YANG GOING FOR MEGA PERDANA COMP.
PARTICIPANT:
-SHARUL
-FIR
-AZ
-NAZRI ( ATIQA BESTFRIEND )
All the best you guys. Enjoys! Suruh the rest ambek video!
HELPERS:
Enjoy yourself k you girls.
Please behave at tempat orang ok?
:)
PS: i sound like a mummy with 22 kids. shucks.
@ 7:58 PM
ASSALLAMMUALAIKUMMMMM:)
LAST WEEK TRAINING WAS A BLASTTTTT......
TRAINING WOULD BE AS PER NORMAL.
THIS TIME, SAPPY HERE DAH BOOKING THE ROOM FOR KORANG.
YEYEH!
MEET UP TIME: 6PM.
DESTINATION: BLK 73, 03-20.
PS: ABG IM COMING GIRLS. YES YES!
On TUESDAY, the percussion training is ON!
MY LAST FEW PROJECTS WITH YOU GIRLS.
AND I HAVE ALSO BOOKED A ROOM FOR THIS.
AKU TAHU PART NI EKYNN MESTI SUKA HABIS.
MEET UP TIME: 6PM
DESTINANTION: BLK 73, 03-21.
PARTICIPANTS:
NISA
ATIQA
LALA
IRMA
MYSELF
MEL
DYLA
EKYNN
LALA
IRMA
MYSELF
MEL
DYLA
EKYNN
& THE REST WHO ARE INTERESTED
BURGERKU!
Friday, November 7, 2008 @ 9:29 PM
mood: HYPER
music: ROUND ONE-KRAY TWINZ
KU MISS FANA!!
KU MISS BURGERKU!!
HELLOO!!
BILA NAK SHOP-SHOP LAGI NIE.
HELLOO!!
BILA NAK SHOP-SHOP LAGI NIE.
Meet you soon deary. Aku miss kau like siao.
Anyways. yesterday went out with Boncet-cet after the fight we had over him staying over at ECP.
Yes.
A big fight though.
Me being the DEGIL & SUPER STUBBORN don't want to forgive him.
walked with him ill Clementi Mrt, took a train to Jurong East.
The plan was to eat at BAGUS.
The plan was to eat at BAGUS.
But since ader pasar malam.
We bedal the cheap ones laa kan.
I ordered - Roti John
He ordered - Kway Teow Goreng + Chicken
Roti John was SUPERB.
The mee was rabak. Thats why i hate pasar malam mee goreng's.
Finish eating, we head to Jurong East library.
Got myself 2 novels.
random idea, we head to catch any movie available at WESTMALL.
And what became our choice?
The JAMES BOND.
The JAMES BOND.
Its really an action movie, however not my taste.
Waiting for the movie to start, Boncet-Cet start to grab my phone and taking photos of NSL skills.
and yes, i though him regarding the nursing skills tested question.
MEMORIZE SAFIAH!
Pictures of the day:
Animal planets frens.
That's the crazy us when it comes to picture taking.
Muker tak pernah sopan.
Cute kan dier?
PS: My first practical besok.
8am-9.40am.
Suspection: NGANTOK
BIRTHDAY + SHEESHA
@ 12:00 AM
mood: TIRED + SLEEPY
music: Aku Masih Syg - ST12
HAPPY 19th Birthday Nigel.
Aper....GEL! ( * Amz sebut it as " APER GIRL..." )
Aper jer Amz nie.
Next would be an update on my FIRST sheesha outing.
All should know im new to the sheesha thingy.
Thanks ehk people.
But i rather have sheesha than ciggy biasa.
Which turn out quiet memorable for me.Eventhough byk gambar TC & JEMPOT.
Yup.
My very first sheeshaa.
Guess what?
all that came was dress in black.
all were damn unplanned.
Home straight after with Liana & Nigel.
Im off finishing ELAHA.
PS: im tired.
BIRTHDAY TREATS
Thursday, November 6, 2008 @ 3:59 PM
mood: SICK
music: SOS-RIHANNA
Someone's birthday is just in the corner.
:)
Happy Birthday!
SHYREEN NATRA NADIA
Turns 20.
Wow.
Hey dearest.
Come what may, i know you are strong.
whatever people say, if its for the best.
take it dengan hati terbuka.
if its not to ur acceptance and way out of lead.
masuk telinga kanan and tendang telinga kiri ok?
BIRTHDAY PRESSY SOON.
Masih Hutang 2 Orang Birthday Pressy.
*nak faints*
CRUSHED
Wednesday, November 5, 2008 @ 8:58 PM
mood: BREAKING POINT
music: SHUT UP AND DRIVE
89% for RTP.
Darn 1% to pass.
From now on i will book for RTE.
Since the price of RTP and RTE is almost the same.
Lets play save and reduce cost.
The great thing that happend to me for today.
The rest just give me a HEADACHED.
And let me remind you, if tomorrow you unable to reach AH for you check up.
Don't come complaining and bragging about it.
You made the decision to hangout with your friends till tomorrow.
You face the consequences.
Maybe i'm that heartless gf that doesn't understand the bf situation.
Fine with it.
Its your decision, your health not mine.
1 week isn't this that i'm planning & look upon.
CRUSHED.
Currently im forcing my self to complete:
1) NS4 Write up
2) NS3 Edit Slides ( My Part )
3) PAS Individual
4) Elaha ( ? w Sandy )
PS: not in the mood for you
CHAOS
Monday, November 3, 2008 @ 10:45 PM
mood: MIX/REMIX
music: TAKE A BOW-RIHANNA
Finished school by 11.45am today.
Straight after that went over to meet Boncet-cet to accompany him to AH ( Alexandra Hospital ).
He wants to get his medical check-up done.
And guess what? He needs to get an appointment.
Thank you.
He is heading to AH again on thursday.
I'm not sure why though, i get easily pissed off with him these few days. And it will get worst.
And of all the worst thing that could happend, i screamed at him in front of Queensway Shopping Centre.
i guess i lost it at that point of time.
I stomped all the way to the 61 bustop and switched to my music.
And i broke down listening to Take a Bow by Rihanna.
I cant take it anymore.
I was practically a different person.
Why?
Why am i acting this way?
Dikir training was super fun today.
With my girls mentelNESS, the funny mistakes that we do.
I guess that is what i will bring when i pass my post.
I enjoy these people company.
With all the giler-giler.
And girls, good news.
EVERY TUESDAY PLS MAKE YOURSELF FREE FROM 7pm-9pm ok?
Starting from next week tuesday.
NASI LEMAK BIRTHDAY
Sunday, November 2, 2008 @ 11:09 AM
mood: PENAT
music: AB TOH FOREVER
Im suppose to get ready.
Anyways, i've bought what i needed from the Ah Boi's shop.
Ramai told orang-orang yang "KAHWIN".
However none of the bini is COMEL.
So yeah.
Boncet-Cet accompanied me there.
Nasib he knows where the place is.
Alhamdullillah.
Anyways, i wont update much about yesterday outing.
Best jugak go public.
You can spend the time talking our arses off.
Ok.
Im here in a rush to wish.
My dearest v-head of ADIRATNA.My ear if i have any complaints.
My shoulder to cry on.
( Asyik nangis jer sap. Kau nangis lagi siap. )
Irma Sakinah
Soon we will celebrate.
FIANCEE + MR BONCET CET
Saturday, November 1, 2008 @ 12:14 AM
mood: SHOCK
music: MY HEART
Had my first lesson with Mel & Nigel.
Basically semua rushing.
And i tell you, i dont know shit about my FIANCEE.
pening sekejab sey dia bebual.
hold this.
touch that.
Bump into Farah & Eiqah.
Wow. So best laa. Semua dah far.
Im still like new.
Nevermind.
Im heading to SERANGOON with Mr Boncet-Cet tomorrow.
Happy 8th Monthsary to Dearest Boncet-Cet.
I guess you are the first one that i'm totally serious with.
Eventhough some of my friends new how odd it is.
How hard it is to make myself fall for you.
But yet your the still the one i turn to when there isnt anyone understands me.
:)
Till tomorrow.