mood: I'VE BEEN FOOLED
music: MAD-NEYO

we look like brother&sister rather than bf&gf isnt it?
haha

we turned 13th today. yes, siti safiah & abdul azim had been together this long. alhamdulillah. eventhough the many arguments we had. thank you dearest for being the most patient guy on earth to entertain all my tantrums. sometimes i just hate myself for hurting you. alhamdulillah, diam tak diam dah 13 months together d. lets concerntrate on getting the license okay d. but obviously, im getting mine first before yours. :)

sometimes, the love that you have been searching are the ones that are close by but never did get your attention

thank you to all the friends that had been there to help here out our problems. actually i guess, its mostly on myside though.
thankyou dear friends. we dont have any special celebration.

i guess i need to treat myself something. took my practical 8.01 just now. wonderful, i practically screamed when my instructor said; " Now you can go take your tp!" hell yes!

alhamdulillah, thankyou to abah/ibu/bf/mb for all the encouragement. im really praying for this tp. insyallah. besty, once i got my license ku bawak kau riding. BURGER! lets riding together yok. insyallah. im really praying for the best.

syukur ya allah.
4th april date at RP with bf.

Labels: thank you for being there;d.

mood: FULLFILLED
music: MAD-NEYO

My day started well. Spend my 1st quarter of the day at home, sending Busyuk to school next cleaning the house, making the beds and breakfast. Next was heading to my 3rd house for my lesson.
yup, booked for SP before heading off to do my 8.01 practical. Oh my my my, even the instructor told me to relax and just take it as a revision. It paid off. The 1st time i took it, i got 28 demerit points with 1 immediate failure. Just now, i got 14 demerits points ( means it should have been a passing mark, max is 18 demerit points) and 1 immediate failure. Hallamak turn off tuls. But i take it in a positive side, i just need to improve and relax.

insyallah.
another note. thanks besty & achi. for today. great laughter in the theater. kekek per itu show.
thank you for the EMERGENCY taxi ride back. we should do this more often tau people.
im off to bed. someone just really enjoy making me angry.
ihateyou.

Labels: where's the trust;d?

Labels: Finally

Labels: Syukran

mood: GREATFUL
music: HALO

Clinical Attachment 2.1 - B
Ethics, Law and Healthcare - A
Nursing Science 3 - B+
Nursing Science 4 - B
Psychology & Sociology - C
Nursing Skills Lab 2.2 - B+
Current Semester Grade Point Average (GPA) - 3.2

Alhamdulillah. What i had aimed eversince the first day of the year was to achieved GPA of 3.2. Subhannallah. I'm really greatful. thank you so much nadia, for all the wake up calls. the constant reminder to stay strong. thank you dear.
Besty been there, my parents being there for me.
Even randomly, Shikin being there giving me encouragement. Insyallah.
For Bf, i will remember that last exam that i sat. I cried so much seeking your attention. But none given. Thinking of it again, is it an indication?

Labels: tears

mood: EXTRAVAGANT
music: TAUBAT

Delivery Suite.
I was so ever excited to even enter the delivery suite. Doing the abdominal palpitations to even seing the texture of the mummy's tummy when the baby is kicking. Oh my goodness, it was one kind of experience. Placing the CTG for to monitor mummy's contraction and baby's heart rate. Learning about it is one thing, doing it is another different issue. By 11.35am, me and Amy was already following our Staff Nurse to the OT to experience looking at the Caesaerean Birth. We need to change into scrub suits. As usual my pants was always the problem. Siapa suruh ader jamban sebesar kuali.


It was really hard to even not tear up when the Doctor able to bring a new life to the world. It was really a sentimental moment for me. Even when i helped with the delivering the Normal Vaginal Birth for a Muslim Couple. And hearing the father azankan the child. Once again i teared up. It was one of a kind.

Exceptional.

Labels: nothing can replace it.

mood: CONFUSE
music: SO SICK

i hate you, but i miss you.
3 down, 7 days left.

Labels: scandalism

mood: SLEEPY
music: SRW

its really hard to even see me and bf not fighting while we are outside. really hard. pasal, its either he purposely do things i hate and would irritate me. or i was just being super emotional. siaper tak geram, baru lepas hujan lebat; lantai licin. and there he goes, acting as though he is about to fall. what would you feel? how i react? his nipple got it from me; and he had fun laughing pasal geli hati. aper nak jadi ngan bf aku? ( shake head )

i was doing my attachment read-up yesterday when the home phone rings. guess who was calling at 11 am? my dearest uncle over at Yew Tee. its obvious what he wants in this middle night. what i hate was, why my dad? abah is not earning like 3K/month. hello!
bukan nak ungkit, but kalau my abah's pay was that big, you think he would allow my mum to iron people's clothing as a part time job?
and kau kan ader anak? asal tak leh tolong? she is practically working. susah-susah suruh lah dier gadai gigi dier tu.

im not even regretting the fact that i ikat perut to pay my ass off for the $420 handphone bill. kimek and urs was $500. dont tell me, when all 3 of you family are working, all three can't shar the amount to pay ur bill? pathetic. ur worst than me. and abah, sanggup kasi. my dad is saving for a new bike. its always been like this, whenever he starts saving, part tu orang datang mintak tolong. :'(


i hate you.
i miss my adiratna, came for training yesterday. suka nisa ketawekan aku. :p

Labels: allah terangi laa kehidupan keluarga kami

mood: LIVES
music: TEARS ON MY GUITAR


my plain guitar was transformed. baik ah! suka giler per. thanks to dearest cousin. sekarang member ngah mangkuk, madang kena bawak balik keja home pasal refuse to do OT.

sabar jot, kau ngah facing role conflict tu. hahah putting PAS module to practice. ya rabbi.


next would be the pictures from the dinner by Kak Ju.
Superb.
made another history that day.
i took my first puff.
and i hated the after effect i had during my 2nd week of attachment.



Lemak basically put the fingers on her eyes to widen it. hahaha love this photo lah.
boleh buat aku giler.

Few photos selected for viewing. the rest is at multiply laa kan.
tgk laa anak kak Efa. heheh tgk aunty-aunty dier posing.

Labels: off to alexander hospital.

mood: LOSE THE ONE YOU WANTED
music: IF I WERE A BOY

IMH44B. its over and done with. I will miss my patients there. yup. different environment. different setting. different routine. It was quite an experiening 2 weeks. im glad its over. now im posted to NUH Ward 48. yeah! deliveries are soon to be expirience.



for relationship wise, i guess we will just stick to this. nothing that i can really elaborate. when i claimed that it is getting from bad to worst, he denies. when i know something is wrong, he denies. im sailing this relationship without direction. im lost.

Labels: without any

Labels: Babes.

Yes, this is a random post though. Spend my time with him yesterday. Yup because, i havent seem to spend enough time with him. Eventhough he can be SOO irritating at times with his actions and words. It will be him i come back to if im happy/sad. It will be him i expect to be by myside other than my family members. For example, Piala Buluh Perindu, eventhough my parents were'nt there, he was there giving me all the support. Eventhough he oppose me of joining SRW at first.

Knowing him after i was crushed with someone's sweet words. He was still there eventhough i told him not to act as though he known me for so long. Always giving that encouragement eventhough he knew my heart wasn't for him. Weird it may seem, our relationship started wasn't based on love (for my side ). It started as close friend, slowly building up its status.

Can't deny that our relationship has its own ups and downs.
Some may even say, " kau ni, madang gaduh jer..". but its hard finding someone that really is full of patience. After 1 year, im still finding what he likes and loves. i know what would make him a MONSTER, when someone lied to him. why? i did it once, and he was really pissed. and that is when i knew, how it hurts.

it wasn't and easy 1yr 7 days relationship. we have a long way to go and learnt on how to taech one another. alhamdulillah. thank you bf. eventhough mu very the irritating+sukabuatorangsakithati.com/sap. i praying very hard that this relationship will last. insyallah.:)

Labels: achieved.

mood: INSAF
music: TAUBAT

subhannallah. i went for practical 7.01 just now. my lesson starts at 2155hrs till 2305hrs. yup. just as i was getting ready, it began pouring heavily. i hate it. why? because i have a huge punggung, and its very hard to get a pants that really just nice for me. so i decided to not wear the pants. wonderful, first my phone fell when i was waiting for my turn. next my phone could not be switched on pasal dah masuk air.

worst, i almost got into an accident at the u-turn at Bukit Batok Rd. it was raining, phobia i tell you. its very hard to see anything. i was having a hard time making a u-turn. its too wide. as a result, a sports car honk me from the back. and why? because i was making that wide turn, at the same time, he was speeding during this kind of weather. MTF!

i was cursing all the way on the bike. lengit. waist down, my body was drenched. once i reached home, called bcc to tell him. guess what he told me? ya allah. buat sakit hati i tell you. seriously.
forget it. i cant even be bothered ah. attachment tomorrow, afternoon shift. my KS is heading to romping tomorrow morning. please take good care of yourself.

Labels: cekalkan hati.

Labels: Practical 7.01

Labels: I miss you Abdul Azim Abdul Razak.

mood: SATISFIED
music: OH YAH TAK YA, YA TAK YA JUGA, INI MELAYU PUNYA CERITA

Labels: BITCHY