photo-opps

2010-05-07T10:55:00.004+08:00

my new found love at IOLAoriginals.
....
introducing mr bf.
i was away for 3 days from all the things here.
:)
the weather there was superbly AWESOME.
but 3 days was enough. broke my record, i tried doing pedicure and manicure.
wow! finally.

now back to concerntrate to MP before i start work the next day.

2010-04-29T18:03:00.002+08:00

thinks are getting more intense.
finally a very nice indoor rest.
i suka, i suka.
:)
penats.
im not sure of what i want to update more about daily living.
i will be away for a while.
....

.

2010-04-22T19:11:00.002+08:00

BumbleBee
i fell in love with this baby. oh yes yes yes.
please be nice.
:)

.....

Hari Tuek Mar

2010-04-19T23:31:00.002+08:00

As we go on, we remember
All the times, we had together
As our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friend forever.

Happy 20th Birthday ♥
We were back in Secondary 1 when we first talked to each other.
Now 7 years and our friendship going on.
May Allah bless you in great health, happiness and joy for you and your love ones.
I couldn't ask for a better besty.

next date would be ECP.

♥

2010-04-19T11:22:00.004+08:00

mood: CONTENTED
music: YANK-WALI BAND

BESTY's 20th Advance + Surprise Birthday Celebration

alhamdulillah, close friends being there make it more meaningful ever.
i guess at the end of the day, we look back thinking how our life changed
eversince we known each other.
not counting haiza, my own cousin. she has been there for my every achievement and downfall.
thanks cuzzy.
the weird thing was, besty almost lost her patience when her dearest sister decided to bring her to KEPPEL BAY instead of shopping time. :)
we sabo'ed her by carrying all her balloons all the way from;
KEPPLE BAY to TAXI to FLEA MARKET.
hehehe member received all the birthday wishes from people around her. :))
next was to flea market over at Singapore Flyer's.

a job well done ladies. :)
ps: smelly + irms not in picture

but sad enough didnt find anything i loved or craved for.
besty and achi went to raffles city for prayers, me and haiza head over to bugis once they were done. i swear, Charles and Keith really made me went "Oh La La".
sadded please.
next was filling our tummies with McD.
my craving was fulfilled. McFlurry.
we spent like close to one hour with just sitting and catching up in our lifes.
:)
i would love more of this SUMBANGS.
soon okay.

......
weekend well spend.
now to think of a way how to ensure i can meet my baby + gila SOON

2010-04-11T10:26:00.004+08:00

aku tak nak besarkan apa yang aku dah buat but things is getting out of hand.
hari biasa orang kerja atau sekolah, standard ibu ngan aku yang bersihkan rumah.
aku buat katil, vacuum rumah, jemur bantal, mandikan atok, kasi obat.
terus terang ah, ikhlas aku buat.

jangan take advantage ah. apa takde satu orang pun boleh
pergi kat dier bila dia panggil?
apa aku sorang jer per kat rumah ni yang tak PEKAK?
siallah, its emotionally destroying me.
find enough lah.

abeh anak dier yang 11 tu takde tangan, takde kaki?
satu soalan ah, ada satu dari korang ambek
kesempatan tak tukarkan pampers dia?
ada?
selama aku kat rumah ni. jgn nak kata tukar pamper lah. korang nak
buang air kencing dier pun pass kat aku. i mean, orang tua tu siapa pada korang?

korang ada otak kan. fikir sendiri lah. pasal makcik/pakcik
aku ni semua ada perasaan.
mak aku kan; takde perasaan.
takde rasa penat.
takde rasa lenguh.
takde rasa nak keluar satu keluarga ngan family dia sendiri.
takde rasa nak shopping.

pandai-pandai korang fikir sendiri.
aku tengah binget, ni ah jadi.
so kalau kau rasa kau betul, comment ah.

2010-04-10T22:38:00.001+08:00

its almost a month now, why are you still doing this to yourself?
must i go to the very last resort before you will stop all this?
..........

im excited about tomorrow.

2010-04-08T22:36:00.002+08:00

its hard isn't it to see pichas of me with my dearest besty.
:)
introducing, MARINAH MOHDAR.
we have quite a different taste in everything.
but somehow, all i must say. you're the best BESTY.
insyallah, she is continuing the studies in one of the local UNI's.
and im counting down your birthday date.

...
work was fun today.
superbly fun. smelly, you should be there.
it was really kekek.com/sap

transformed

2010-04-07T14:14:00.003+08:00

♥

This was the year i became close to MCC.
:) this was the year that my of curly hair.
was still happy and enjoying my hair.

it was coming to 4 yrs when 2009 i decided to continue curling my hair.
one reason was my hair was growing longer, and its causing trouble.
hair was getting much is the worst state.
even when i went to school with track pants, as though i was in my pyjamas.
imagine that.

soon after i was prepare physically and mentally.
biggest changed i had was late 2009 when i decided to rebond my hair with father's permission.
finally, the change was really something i need to boost my esteem.
no regrets.
im more in control of the hair now.

finally.
this is the current look.
not that im saying i've regretted my bangs, but its really in my way.
:)
alhamdulillah.
changing for the better.
dengan berkat dari DIA, im able to.

....

2010-04-02T18:51:00.003+08:00

turn left. turn right.
i must say i miss this fringe.
:)
faster grow fringe.
as it is, im still down with slight fever, sore throat, flu and cough.
yup.
u name it, and i've got it.
yesterday was really a new day. besty finally met Smelly.
i like. after work headed to TS for a late lunch aka early dinner.
after that we hunt for stuff, but first was our killing shoes.
cheap $5 slippers was our saviour and also Mak's panadol Extra saves the day.

next date is 8th Apr, Achi is joining.
confirm gerek.com
.....

2010-04-01T10:47:00.004+08:00

was not feeling well this few days.

i bet i must go back to night runs on friday night.

work is starting like a month from now.

like finally i hope this time i get the hang of it.

west coast was marvelous. i never did experience those obstacles. 3 other hantu's really pushed me to my limits this time. :)

i thanked god for them.

alhamdulillah.

Only when we are no longer afraid do we begin to live.- Dorothy Thomson

...

2010-03-29T09:27:00.002+08:00

everything is getting back on track now.

somehow i bet things happend for a good reason.

its okay, chins up.

...

had a mini relaxation activity with my lovelies.

thank you for the offer guys. it was really one crazy day we had.

great hugs from kiks.

great picture taking with the twinnyTEKS.

we should do it more often.

im one happy me.

2010-03-26T17:35:00.003+08:00

During training.
I was practically burgered.
From bottom.
Me
Kiki
Teks
Dayah

In the end.
i feel something squashed. flattened.

Adiratna @ NTU

.....

2010-03-18T18:44:00.002+08:00

it still hurts, up till now.
i wish you the best in your future.
whatever people say about you, do your parents proud.
i know you may not see the reason now.

insyallah.

...
its not time for me to gain it.
once again. im tested with everything in one single day.
nonetheless, i know i can do better.
pressure was getting the best out of me.
:)
chin up, next time.

2010-03-17T21:05:00.002+08:00

i'm praying for the very best.
subhannallah.
all i ask if for the courage to finish it smoothly.
the rest i leave it up to you.

kebesaran mu ya allah.
amin.

2010-03-09T11:25:00.005+08:00

how i wish i was as free as this lady right here.
how i wish i was free from all the reports.
how i wish im free to decide.

.......................

whatever it is, i've started to jog again.
and this time around, i drag my nyai along.
imagine me running while pushing nyai on wheelchair. i feel great actually.
i guess the weight im pushing helps increases the amount of fats i'm burning.
ibu is joining the everyday regime. not her motivating me, but its vice verca.
:)
meeting jijot and ayu later for lepaks session over at Coffee Bean.
sexcited.

2010-03-06T20:53:00.002+08:00

Sumbangs Outing

2010-03-06T09:29:00.004+08:00

SUPEERRDEK

the short meet up with them was marvelous.
smelly + burger + sapp = unstopable laughter
it was a real wonderful heart to heart talk.
the best was the car ride. its always been a good thing when all this 3 crazy people meet.
if the car could explode because of the amount of laughter we have, it had done so.
the sharing of thoughts, the ideas, planning of future.
i guess i really that time to reflect.
thanks korang.
♥

♥

2010-03-05T18:40:00.006+08:00

RED CARPET AFFAIR

....................................
lastly, dancefloor loves.

HAPPY 20th

2010-02-23T10:56:00.002+08:00

meet my other twin. guess what.
after knowing him for like freaking 3 years.
i dont realise that he hold the same birth date as me.
happy 20th bday .
it was really memorable. from the start of the day till the end when i cried till my eyes turn puffy and swollen.
i dont want to brag about it here.

♥

2010-02-21T22:30:00.000+08:00

21Feb2010

sentosa trip was marvelous.
im already 2X darker than my usual.
we took off from my place and head to sentosa. i swear the news i received made my tummy churn.
alhamdulillah. the event went well.
thank you to kat and kembar for the wonderful day.
we made our move at 6pm.
thank you

♥

2010-02-15T09:53:00.003+08:00

It was a normal 14 Feb 2010 for me.
Yup. I wasn't expecting any exceptionally special from BCC.
He was having family chalet the day before.
I was working on Valentine's Day.
:) What else should i say?
BCC want to meet up after shift, head over to Woodlands since he said its just for awhile.
I guess, what he got me really shocked the HELL out of me.

....................
I didnt expect it at all.
okay lah, maybe flowers.
but he got me a GPR Helmet and Handsocks .
The GPR Helmet designs has EVO's design, like Power Ranger.
The one i had my eyes on eversince i enrolled for bike license.
Sweet or what.
" Asyik-asyik complaint tangan ada two tone kan, i belikan handsocks "
speechless.
i didnt brought it home, i leave it to him to design the helmet.
thank you love.

LATE MADNESS

2010-02-12T17:43:00.004+08:00

i swear i mixed up all my roster.
i swear i saw my shift as PM, but somehow it was AM.
i rushed to work eventhough it was already 8.30 am when i left.
i was irresponsible, thats all i had.
this is my first and last time.
i has to sacrifice $20 as i didnt place my Cashcard on my I/U.
........

its okay, lesson learnt. never take advantage. not sure re-check until confirm.
now im paying my days of MC.
i hate taking MC, main reason is i have to pay it all back.
there goes my PH and DO.

Saturday 13/Feb/10 : AM Shift
Sunday 14/Feb/10 : PM Shift
Monday 15/Feb/10 : PM Shift
Tuesday 16/Feb/10 : PM Shift
Wednesday 17/Feb/10 : AM Shift
Thursday 18/Feb/10 : AM Shift
Friday 19/Feb/10 : AM Shift
Saturday 20/Feb/10 : DO
Sunday 21/Feb/10 : DO

Now all i have is too endure.
My case study presentation is on the 17 Feb 10.
And i have yet to even start on any. Headache pls.
Come on Saf. You know you can!

HOW IT STARTED

2010-02-08T19:10:00.005+08:00

.Dikir Barat.
i wasn't even knew the existence of it in the first place.
if i recalled, i was there to accompany nadia for the 1st training.
but somehow being the odd one out, i still stayed.
i remembered.
during that period, irma/kiki/permy/teks/farah all is the big clique.
and somehow it really scare me off to be in every training.
i swear i feel like backing out.

i never regret being in ADIRATNA.
i never did.
maybe that is how i realise my strength and weakness.

being part in the group teach you how to handle different situation calmly even when you know people had just twist your words.
from there. i learnt.
when you look back, all you remember how the tears and hard work brought you there.
how the jokes shared.
how each hug really meant for each other.
how we shared the drinks.
how we shared HACKS.

imy

...ADIRATNA...

This was back when we were in Yr1.
Except for Yati.
The rest were all newbies.

...SRIKANDI...

will be back....

2010-02-07T12:54:00.007+08:00

Its been in a while eversince i update this dusty blog of mine.

Normal for human being to be stressed out, same goes for a machine; BROKEDOWN .
my life has been okay.
only for the fact that i realise i've been missing out alot in life.
i've learnt.; no more promises. Till im sure enough i can make it.

......

havent had a decent date or meet-up with bcc for 2 months now.
yes, somehow its really testing my patience.
with me working shifts and him having his own tight family issues.
it makes it even harder.
and when its my off day, we spend it with quarelling over SETOOOPID things.
i swear, i rather work and keep myself busy.

be patient safia.
be understanding.
jangan marah-marah safia.
cool down.
I AM.

with love,
safia

HEART TO HEART

2010-01-28T19:09:00.004+08:00

it was really weird when you start to have a heart to heart conversation.

like normally when ur sms'ing / on the phone; you can decide to stop or hang up.

but when your personally there, its heart wrenching.

the tears was all worth while.

the tears made things much clearer.

the tears show how remorse we felt.

the hug was something needed to soothe us down.

the hug was something needed for comfort.

the hug was something needed for security.

thank you love.

glad you were always there for me.

eventhough i must say, we are financially and emotionally unstable.

im happy that we finally sit down and talk.

and it was the first time i cried in front of bcc.

sumpah it was BURUK.com/sap

ily

............

2010-01-26T18:46:00.000+08:00

im getting up slowly.

we are.

im not sure.

......

2010-01-24T09:33:00.003+08:00

im happy that people family gets together every weekends.
im happy that atleast their cousins enjoy each others company; as simple as playing badminton.
im happy that they laugh at each other silly acts.

what about mine?
be it paternal or maternal side.
why aren't mine like theirs?
every family has each problems that they encounter. i agree. but somehow, theirs still put aside all this differences to get together.
one family came as far as from Tampines.
mine just live within west and north didnt have the thought of get together as a whole family.

im complaining? dont tell me you dont feel the same way.
you feel the hurt, seeing old photos of our family getting together just to celebrate birthdays?
somehow im tired of dreaming .

....

2010-01-22T21:48:00.004+08:00

its friday people!
yes. eventhough i felt the first 2 weeks was draggy as hell.
this 2 weeks posting was way better.
why?
we practically did much hands on and we did learnt a lot.
5 more days left in specialised posting. and less than 26 days left in the ward.
time flies so fast.
.......

was checking the letterbox and saw this leaflet of Instant Mix 7.
i swear i fell in love again.
:)
other than bags, cameras are my babies.
lets aim:

2010-01-20T23:06:00.002+08:00

.Nur Joanna Sari.
That's her name.
yup. one kind of unique name.
happy 12th birthday.
korang semua ni grow up so fast.
making me & jijot look so old.
anyways, do study hard deary.
dgr ckp mama and papa okay.

lots of love,
kak oyah

HAPPY 12th

2010-01-20T10:01:00.002+08:00

Adik birthday celebration was held one day in advance.
practically, she received lots of stuff from different people.
why?
pasal ni anak dah pandai ngecek from each of us.
anyways.

Adik,
Happy 12th Birthday.
Time passes by fast and your already going to be sitting for your PSLE in like 9 months time.
Concerntrate on it love.
Stay strong. Never give in easily in learning.
May allah bless you with health and happiness.

Love,
Kak Oyah.

Undescripable

2010-01-16T20:04:00.007+08:00

each time i tried to recall, why, why must i be the one having to go through all this feelings.
sometimes i hate myself for not being able to be like the rest.
sometimes i hate myself for hurting people i love.
subhannallah, HE knows how hard i tried not to hurt and destroy the relationship with the people i've come to love.

family;
no matter how hard i tried.
no matter how ignorant i tried to be and always prayed it will get better someday.
i guess im tired and sick of waiting for it to be back to normal.
it hurts to see my family breaking apart.
it hurts to see that its hard for us to eat as one big family once more.
my parents are my root to perserverance.

guide me through, ya allah.

friends;
our differences may be one of many strengths.
our differences may be even be the caused of our path heading in different ways.
im afraid to build much more, im afraid to hurt more than i've already have.
im afraid to put others where i had been, im afraid i'm in the losing end.

guide me through, ya allah.

love;
loving isnt something you own.
loving is something you're willing to share , trust and treasure.
loving is something wish has to be a learning process for us to be better.
im staying.
im staying.
yes i am.
a girl i am, fragile inside.

guide me through, ya allah.

...
bleeding

2010-01-06T20:32:00.001+08:00

its so hard explaining how i miss you.
and its so hard finding time to slot you into my timetable.
i have tuition to be given.
i have work that is with SHIFTS.
i have random gf meet-up.

have you ever thought i just somehow want that 15mins busride to spend with you?
have you ever thought that i might appreciate it?
im already in high hopes to meet you, once again. my hopes were crushed.

.........
thanks.

TRUST

2010-01-02T10:37:00.004+08:00

mood: HURT
music: BROKEN HEARTED GIRL-BEYONCE

one after another.
my year went off with fireworks of life.
had a mild accident earlier on today at PIE. babyLOVE was hit very bad this time round.
i was considered lucky with long scratches and bruises over my arms/fingers/legs and toe.
i was heading towards to changi, on my way to Darul Ma'wa.
was looking forward to see Rahsul. i guess bukan my rezeki.

i guess the first thought i had when i fell was how do i go about telling abah i fell again.
malu semua hilang when i just cried under the flyover.
head back after seeing babyLOVE up the tow truck.
the rest is history.

......

kepada BETINA,

my 1st and last warning to you.
hands off my man.
kau jangan sampai aku carik kau dalam ward.
isnt there anyone single out there where you can toss ur body to.

move off bitch!

love,
safiah

2009-12-29T09:44:00.002+08:00

mood: UP DOWN
music: NOTE TO GOD-CHERIE

new year is coming.

resolution is still not up.
not all of the resolution is up.
This three is a must to achieved. i hope the man above could come along for the 1st one though.

Bali Vacation ( Late Feb )
Car License ( End of April )
2A License ( Late June )

off to sleep again. my body hurts and still aching.

2009-12-26T01:08:00.003+08:00

mood: MINAH CANTIK
music: BURNING

Finish my 2nd night duty earlier today.
Yup spent my Christmas Night in the ward. I wonder how i had survived it. Imagine if i were to be on duty on the eve of Hari Raya? i would tear up for sure.
it was suppose to be my riding day with the boys. but i decided to go for baby's birthday party over at Costa Sand. Reason. I dont feel like riding today. Body aching everywhere.

And riding would obviouly be till late night.
i hope the boys wont be angry with me.
reached home just in time before midnight. i miss bf already.
anyways. im off to bed now.
gd night dearies.

2009-12-23T12:30:00.002+08:00

mood: A BIT SENSE OF HAPPINESS
music: KERJA MALAM

met up with MAK yesterday over supper aka dinner at ALIP.
yup, we talked hugged and send her home.
kesian nanti apa-apa yazid carik gueh tahu.

its up to you to decide where you want to do in life. whats more what you're gonna do with your life. if that is the decision and mindset that you already had before even we start on our journey.
i have no other things left to say on it.
its seems that its ur life.

the end.

2009-12-21T10:51:00.003+08:00

mood: LETHARGIC
music: TOMAT-WALI BAND

Bf's fault that im addicted to this song. hmmph!
yesterday head down to Suntec City, bf's mum wanna get camera.
i feel its kind off random, and hope she likes the camera.
it started off bad for both of us. yup.
normal, its like dah macam kebiasaan. it was okay. took bus trip home.
penat okay.
the amount of people in suntec city.
and bumping onto aisyah and fauzan was unexpected.
:)
anyways. back to working life.
im coping.
love you.

me- " what does my baby wants for christmas?"
baby- "what does her babat wants to get her?"

you make me and bonchet laugh okay baby.

2009-12-19T01:16:00.006+08:00

mood: ♥.
music: LISTEN

its been awhile since i last met ♥.
both of us have different responsibilities that at times didnt allow ourself to spend QT as much.
this week have been hectic.
yes. very hectic that at times i feel like giving up.
having to doubt myself is certain things after being questioned by the experts.

its tough. but come to think of it, when things get though and you overcomed it. the sense of achievement afterwards is priceless.
i guess now is to give the best to this final attachment. soon.
leaving pretty soon.

date with sumbangs soon.
riding with the boys soon.
missing the ♥.

worthwhile

2009-12-17T00:03:00.003+08:00

mood: ACHING
music: RUSSIAN ROULETTE- RIHANNA

This was how i looked like earlier today. yes my dear.
i dared myself and challenge my limits to take up 9 cases.
actually i had 6 cases on hand. 1 patient went for op. 1 came from ED and another was a transfer from ICU. i guess what i can say is that, im thankful that my staff is super patient with me.
thank you for staying back with me eventhough i was slow in handling stuff.
today i had alot of calls to be done.
cultures to collect.
PVRU to be done.
and many many many many more.
alhamdulillah. its over. tomorrow i want to take another 9 case. i know its hard.
everything is hard went you start it at the first pace. need to get use to it though.
i'll be off for my OT and ED posting soon. and guess when is my night duty?
its on 23rd and 24th dec.
Yes people. i will be celebrating my christmas with carols during night duty and wholesome supper aka breakfast.
insyallah, when there is a will, there will always be a way.

:)
and lovelies. i have a new love after 1.5 years of using Nokia MusicExpress5610 and Motorolla Phone.

Presenting:
SAMSUNG OMNIA PRO B7330

jakun.com
and im leaving soon.
dont miss me.

2009-12-14T22:28:00.002+08:00

mood: HAPPY OCCASSION
music: KEPAK-KEPAK KELEPUNG-KELEPUNG

alhamdulillah.
our sister has already ended her singlehood. and with her only b, usop.
was able to be there to witness the whole process.
im happy for you dearest sis.
chombs and azim doakan yang terbaik dalam menjalani bahtera yang baru dibina.
insyallah, setiap yang baik mesti menerima yang baik.
xoxo.

ps: ours wont be that soon. its too early to say. insyallah.

suprisingly suprised

2009-12-11T23:31:00.003+08:00

mood: CAUGHT OFF GUARD
music: CRAWL-CHRIS BROWN

didnt rode to work today.
bf fetched from work. yes yes. bcc fetched.
finally. miss those times when he would fetch from work.
bcc brought along his mum's otak-otak place with bread. thank you love.
we talked about how our weekend plans are gonna be like.
updating each other on our daily activities.
how was my practicals coming along.

meeting his again tomorrow to head to sis angel's solemnisation.
im sexcited for sis angel.
:)

once again love. thank you.
i guess, the flower really made my week today.
eventhough how screwed i was this week, you ended it with a good note.
ily.

2009-12-08T08:14:00.002+08:00

Dear Abdul Azim,

HAPPY 22nd YEARS OF LIFE.
This was our first celebrating it together. Yesterday was simple meet up. We should go for a better celebration okay love.
I hope what i gave was something you least expected.
Thank you for being there despite everything that has happend.
:)

Iloveyou.

From,
Siti Safiah

Salam Aidiladha

2009-11-27T23:48:00.003+08:00

sweet arent they? i guess i somehow knew what made them strong.
satu kepala angin... and another one super penyabar.
both. unites and work towards with each differences.
i love you.
ana uhibbuk fillah

ps: gd night semua.

2009-11-26T10:23:00.002+08:00

mood: WHERE DO WE GO?
music: CRAWL-CHRIS BROWN

Everybody sees it’s you.
I’m the one that lost the view.
Everybody says we’re through.
I hope you haven’t said it too.

So where do we go from here,
With all this fear in our eyes?
And, where can love take us now?
We’ve been so far down.
We can still touch the sky.

If we crawl
‘til we can walk again
Then we’ll run
Until we’re strong enough to jump.
Then we’ll fly
Until there is no end.
So let’s crawl, crawl, crawl
Back to love.

♥

there is still hope to US when we decide to work on it.
even if it means to go from 0.

From Boncet

2009-11-19T09:52:00.003+08:00

mood: IN A MOOD TO UPDATE
music: -

im not sure. he just looks better in candid rather than formal photos.
im so proud of you can, gendut?
your first day of quiting. i know its hard love.
gendut was already having flu and feverish. the signs of withdrawals.
its tough love. but once your over it. you will sense the achievement.
im here. i hope you know.
i hope the short date was okay.

love,
boncet.

SHOP

2009-11-15T23:20:00.003+08:00

mood: SHOPPING MOOD
music: HALO

The outfit she wore all the way till Peninsular Shopping Mall.
once there. sMELly decided to get a top and jeans. yup. this clever girl decided to change.
i guess she felt uncomfortable. me?
normal. slacking outfit. the usuals.
i bought myself a pair of shoes. have not taken photo of it yet.
what i can say is, the shoelace SUPER DUPER COMEL.

AFTER.
i told you. she change directly. and she was sure happy gobber when her legs look nice.
:)

love this shot. terima kasih to me. sMELly look as though she was on with her ehem-ehem.
looks can be deceiving dearest loves.
and this is me. my cheeks are getting on my nerves.
ufh!

im sick of each and everything that is happening. one after another.
it doesnt last long does it. i wonder why are we in this state.
and its hurting to even see, you able to talk nicely to other girls. but not yours. weird isnt it?
i have nothing to comment. i guess im just excited over urs, i just hope im able to celebrate it with you.

2009-11-12T23:36:00.003+08:00

i realise one thing. when you least expect things to happend, it will somehow happend.
i dont want to self torture. however, everytime i think about it. it hurts. it hurts so much. its not that i didnt accepted his apology. its just i guess, people place my trust at the very edge of the cliff. and it crashed and broke into zillion pieces.

cant be bothered to even think of what the future of it.
i guess my current aim is to pass prcp. Class 3 and 2A done by June2010.
idontgiveashitanymore.

night

2009-11-12T00:09:00.003+08:00

mood: HAPPY & USELESS
music: USUALS

9.5hours of aching of upper and lower limbs gone by the time i saw you at the lobby waiting for me. thank you loves. and please love, i dont want you to waste money on things that is not important love. i hope its the last.
cut things straight love fetch me home earlier today, shift ended at 10pm. well i have nothing to comment. better start adapting fast. since love didnt ate earlier today, we had supper at Al-Ameen. Was still deciding on whether to head to Aliff /Al-Ameen. typical laa kita.
Yup. Had our dinner. i guess something trigger my side of being " mataer yang tak guna ". i don't know. im not sure why, i felt it was my resposbility that love wasnt able to quit smoking.

lost i guess. i have yet talks things out about this matter with love. seriously, im loss with words on how to tell him to stop. or even to......

i have my roster with me. sister was in a good mood i guess. i hope it doesnt mean that something bads gonna happend.
lets just say. FTT will be okay because im on my DO (DAYOFF).

time to book practice before the FTT.
nights love. texting love regarding certain things before heading to bed.

2009-11-10T19:56:00.005+08:00

mood: NEGLECTED

music: usuals

Officially, my PRCP starts today.
the actualy first day in the ward, but my body immune system demands much rest at home.
past two weeks have been hectic and both physically and emotionally exhausting.
yes practically from the inhouse attachments/trainings/tuition/love it was really testing the patience i had.

but now, im done. no more of this. if it is still there, im gonna tepis-tepis and make sure i would not hurt myself on the way.
Lets just recap what happend to me over the Friday, Saturday and Sunday.

Friday
after the talk by our Dean, Dr Phang. we all rushed to get our PDAs settled and off i went home.
i crashed. practically couldnt take it no more.
my brain demanded more sleep but i couldn't stop thinking of songs that i have not memorise and ragams that i have not finish polishing.
woke up, remembered to bring an extra helmet as im heading to Marine Terrace after training with I. we speed at the roundabout for like 3 times. boleh rasa baring-baring.
reached home around 11.45pm. im shagged. totally shagged. with love being irrating and not being there. i felt like a beggar.

Saturday
reached school around 9.35am with smellyboo. yup, that smelly didnt drive her RUSH along...
kecoh tau tu minah kalau naik motor. i guess it was good to talk to while riding. it was really fun.
training, training, training
then off sending tek home, before i rush home and got ready to meet jijot for
Bonch Graduation Dance.
yes, my love BONCH dance to the song Candyman.
pictures up.
after the graduation, me and jijot off to IMM for a short and simple dinner + shopping spree.
not for me though, more to jijot's side.

miang kan ni anak. look at his pose.

finally a photo of us. and pls tangan aku besar betul. puks betul gerams.com.

Sunday
the day finally arrived.
all much nagging + pressure will be gone today. yes i do agree.
my babyLOVE was left in school for the fact that i was already dressed from head to toe and its impossible to ride to Ayer Rajah CC with that outfit.

cantekkan kaler baju kami. and i have said this banyak kali.
finally baju yang kita nak sewa dari dulu, dapat dipakai akhirnya.
terima kasi tok juara/tok karut/tok-tok paluan dan kesayangan ku toks awok-awok.
tanpa korang, ini semua tiada.
after competition, change like super fast. tak sempat wash muka pun.
love was already outside the cc waiting for me and mel.
off to send mel to her place and im off with love to help him carry some of small things left from his house.
i saw the frame i made for him one of our anniversary. it was on sept08. should be i was only 6months with him. we look weird. aku look budak-budak.com
next was heading to schoool fetching my babylove. yeah. i rode. love was driving. mcm weird gitu. yes very weird. aku rasa janggal.
nevertheless, reached home feed myself with good food and mandi.
got ready for Datuk Sharifah Aini's Concert.
love is sending ibu and me there. the rest korang think sendiri. all i can say. it was a mistake going to the concert. bukan zaman aku laa eh!
balik pun love ambik. i was too tired.

the end
ftt on 28th nov.

2009-11-01T16:25:00.002+08:00

you know how hurt i am right now?

you how foolish i feel?

sampai bila?

sampai mati baru nak ckp?

for all i care ah, kau simpan je.

2009-10-21T22:52:00.003+08:00

mood: SAD
music: :'(

True Love Story

Life Together

One fine day, an old couple around the age of 70, walks into a lawyer's office. Apparently, they are there to file a divorce.

Lawyer was very puzzled, after having a chat with them, he got their story....This couple had been quarreling all their 40 over yrs of marriage nothing ever seems to go right.
They hang on because of their children, afraid that it might affect their up-bringing. Now, all their children have already grown up, have their own family, there's nothing else the old couple have to worry about, all they wanted is to lead their own life free from all these years of unhappiness from their marriage, so both agree on a divorce....

Lawyer was having a hard time trying to get the papers done, because he felt that after 40 yrs of marriage at the age of 70, he couldnt understand why the old couple would still want a divorce..
While they were signing the papers, the wife told the husband.."I really love u, but i really cant carry on anymore, I'm sorry..""Its o.k, i understand.." said the husband. Lookin at this, the lawyer suggested a dinner together, just 3 of them,wife thought, why not, since they are still gonna be friends..

At the dining table, there was a silence of awkardness.The first dish was roasted chicken, immediately, the old man took the drumstick for the old lady.."take this, its your favourite.."
Looking at this, the lawyer thought maybe theres still a chance, but the wife was frowning when she answer.."This is always the problem, you always think so highly of yourself, never thought about how I feel, dont you know that i hate drumsticks?"

Little did she know that, over the years, the husband have been trying all ways to please her, little did she know that drumsticks was the husband's favourite. Little did he know that she never thought he understand her at all, little did he know that she hates drummsticks even though all he wants is the best for her.

That night, both of them couldnt sleep, toss and turn, toss and turn...after hours, the old man couldnt take it anymore, he knows that he still loves her, and he cant carry on life without her, he wants her back, he wants to tell her, he is sorry, he wanted to tell her "i love you"...
He picks up the phone, starting dialing her number....ringing never stops..he never stop dialing....
On the other side, she was sad, she couldn’t understand how come after all these years, he still doesnt understand her at all, she loves him a lot, but she just cant take it anymore....phone's ringing, she refuses to answer knowing that its him..."whats the point of talking now that its over...i have ask for it and now i wanna keep it this way, if not i will lose face.."she thought...still ringing...

she have decided to pull out the cord...

Little did she remember, he have heart problems...
The next day, she received news that he had passed away...

she rushed down to his apartment, saw his body, lying on the couch still holding on to the phone...he had a heart attack when he was still trying to get through her phone line....
As sad as she could be...she will have to clear his belongings...

when she was looking thru the drawers, she saw this insurance policy, dated from the day they got married, with the beneficiary being her... And together in those file, there was this note...

"To my dearest wife, by the time you're reading this, I'm sure I'm no longer around, I bought this policy for you, though the amount is only $100k, I hope it will be able to help me continue my promise that i have made when we got married, I might not be around anymore, I want this amount of money to continue taking care of you, just like the way I will if I could have live longer. I want you to know Iwill always be around, by your side... I love you"

Tears flowed like river......

"When you love someone, let them know... You never know what will happen the next minute.... Learn to build a life together.. Learn to love each other. For who they are.. not what they are..."

imy

teared while reading this story. im not sure. i guess it reflects myself. never did i realise that i was being a arse for treating him that way. i cried thinking that maybe, i will not realise my mistakes till its too late.

ya allah, i hope not. subhannallah.

Photo

2009-10-20T23:33:00.003+08:00

mood: IM OKAY
music: -

18th October 2009
PerjumpaanRaya MCC @ Mok's Place
Finally our baju raya photo. yes. my bf baju raya isnt the same as mine. and next year, i want ibu to jahit for him the baju raya. I prefer my mum jahit. quality terpelihara.
From the size of the baju, to the cutting of it.
I bet ibu can do a much,way better job.
yup. and by the way, i didnt bite him on the lips. he got it while sleeping.

20th Oct 2009
Went to Visit Cik Munah at SGH. Yup she was admitted to the ICU, alhamdulillah she is getting better. And her friend has already planned outings for her.
Me and Sandy head to Blood Donation Center, Baby cant donate; her iron level tooo low.
I was drowsy though throughout the process. Step strong jer.
After that head too Tong Seng and had our late lunch.
Head back to Bugis Street and enjoy Shopping & Phototaking.
Thank you for the day deary.
:)

Sentosa

2009-10-17T22:40:00.004+08:00

mood: PENAT.COM

music: ZAPIN USIK MENGUSIK-SENARIO

Earlier today, cleaned the house. Norm for me if im at home on a saturday.
Wash and polish my babyLOVE, wow. its been awhile since i pamper her.

Rest for awhile, got ready to meet bcc at 1pm.

Waited for Mr O to arrive, took 188 at meet the rest at VivoCity.

It was my first picnic with them though. I guess i really tried to put effort knowing bcc's friends partner. yup. i practically talked. we laughed together.

shared our thoughts.

i kinda love this photo. not sure why.

cute?

saw the camera was with who?

I guess my bcc is already addicted to snapping photos eversince the birth of my sexyLOVE.

yes.

He was the one snapping away like no one's business.

im really scared for next friday.

we took 188 back home. bump to Irfan and his mother at the IMM stop.

my bonch sat with me till his bustop. At first shy shy cat dont want to talk to bcc. in the end his whole body was lying on both of us. sempat budak kecik tu call bcc , boncet. he pratically screamed from outside of the bus.

:) my day. alhamdulillah.

2009-10-15T23:59:00.002+08:00

mood: NUMB
music:

(ps: the girl yang paling kanan)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAVOURITE COUSIN.

NURHAIZA HAZLAN

16102009

MEET YA SOON.

and to whoever. THANKS.

Usik mengusik

2009-10-15T13:23:00.005+08:00

mood: THANKFUL

music: ZAPIN USIK MENGUSIK

the day started with a small number of people. finally. the last number was 17 people.

20 seater bus. i was a happy big girl yesterday.

put all the heartaches aside. i aint gonna spoil my joyous day anymore.

with the presence of my cramps, i couldn't care less.

Decided to start taking photos at haziq place.

this was the decent First Ladies photo that we took. After that was all the informal shots. Do visit the album at my fb. and albums from others albums.

This was at Amir's house.

Sorry for the indecent photo. It was suppose to be a formal group shot. But i dont care. im happy.

It was raining heavily over at amir's place.

This was over at Mel's place. :) This is the Max camwhored happend. Rumah bertangga beb.

Mesti take the every chance to take pictos.

Im off.

Salams Semua.

2009-10-13T10:17:00.003+08:00

mood: BUILDING IT UP
music: SO SICK-NEYO

True enough? Bestfriend/Enemy/Boyfriend. i TOTALLY agree with the enemy part now. im in the ENEMY mode right now. yes yes. irritating heartbreaking mangkuk. Sabar safia. Sabar Safia.

Sanny bebeh told that we should talk and clear the conflict out. I wonder when is that.

Take good care of yourself. Eventhough i may not seem to care what you are up to. I guess it goes both ways.

the end;

2009-10-09T23:31:00.002+08:00

mood: BOSAN
music: -

how hurtful it is when you had plan things out nicely, accordingly. yet someone will somehow spoil it. lepas satu-satu happening. forget it la. i won't even one to comment another word on you. and most likely i wont be seing you for 1 week. so its gonna make up to 2 weeks. that would means the end of holidays and im back to school again.

the change i wanted wouldnt be happening this year. thanks to you.

i guess to avoid more heartaches, avoidance is the best medicine to it. sheesha plan with A, P, and S was suppose to be a blast. I had to rushed home. mangkuk!

2009-10-09T08:40:00.003+08:00

mood: MILD HAPPINESS
music: SO SICK- NEYO

its the final day of the whole 6 weeks of attachment. somehow, i dont feel the excitement of it all.
why? i have no answer to it either. i wonder why i've been in this down moments in my life. my plans of going out with SANDY baby to Sentosa was knocked down by bcc. the reason of the inconsistent update of the sea. there goes my plans.

10th Oct -Raya with Sumbangs

11th Oct -Adiratna Beraya

14th Oct -Nurses Beraya

18th Oct -MCC Beraya

In between the days i have my own outings with different people. come to think of it, i don't even know whether i can make it. why i make myself busy ? the answer is simple. the moment i plan an outing with bcc, it will just crash at the very last moment. everytime.

yes. some advise to be patient. but what happends when it comes to often? dont ur heart crushed into pieces? mine did.

12th Oct -Out Shopping with Sandy

13th Oct -Out Karaoke with 8C

Anymore adds? Farah, yuk bwk aku pergi Marina Barrage.

4 Days

2009-10-06T10:39:00.002+08:00

mood: CONTENTED
music: TRAGEDI OKTOBER-SAP & MEL

saturday pink ribbon marathon was over and done with. the outing with mel and malaun cancelled. mel was down with bodyaches and malaun woke up at 3pm. ya allah. prangai tak snoh-snoh. at lunch with meera & ira over at kfc. off home in a busride, slept all the way from ecp till clementi interchange. super tired. didnt even realise that ira got off the bus.

reached home by 1.30pm, bathed. charge the already dead phone. and off to bed by 3pm. thought of waking up at 4pm to watch Hindustan DOOM. aku yang doom sampai 7pm. too tired i guess. smelly ajak lepak. so yeah. lepas isyak off out with her. boleh sesat eh.
takpe. learning point. head of to bpp, talk video recording. sungguh tak class sia muka aku.
msg'ed burger asking if she wanna meet. yabadabadoooo. we were suppose to go to kak illya's place tomorrow, yet we "explored" her place 1 day in advance. lek-lek dalam kereta. then tgk mat-mat motor jalan raya lepas tu purposely put on the throttle in front of us. typical.
nak aja aku campak batu.

waited for yati and burger to meet illya and off we head to tampines. omg. funny gila. if you put me/mel/burger together. we can even make a raya outing together. all the way from kak illya place to PIE to tampines. we were laughing, until mel sampai distracted because of the continous laughing. reached burger's place, lepak-ed at her house. another kekek incident.
reached home at 2.30am. happygobber.

sunday. big event awaits.
hair wasnt being friendly with me. sap was so kempro. im thankful that kak illya gave me and mel a chance to explore our capabilities. and smelly thanks for the constant tunjuk ajar. aku ni budak masih baru belajar. :)
after the formal event at bukit panjang. off we hide out more food over at tampines. another laughing session with burger. the mother also sekaki. kekek.com/sap aku suka banget ini. must do it more often ah. by the time i reached home. i was dead tired.

yesterday went to work without riding babyLOVE. yup. one reason was that i was tired. next was bcc was fetching me from work. yes, why must i go public when i have babyLOVE. simple reason. i have bcc to talk to all the way. i can hear what happend to him for the paass few days. told him regarding the upcoming events that is happening.:) member ngan muka gituks. mintak kena burgerKING je.
okay people. im off packing my things for work later.

19th

2009-09-30T23:10:00.003+08:00

mood: COMPLICATED
music: MARIAH CAREY-HERO

Happy 19th love.
i still find it difficult to know we are giving cold shoulders on this very day.
there goes my chance of meeting you today.
:'(
ily d.
sometimes i just hope that the fighting will end.
hopeful.

2009-09-29T23:23:00.004+08:00

mood: BIPOLAR
music: LOST

thank you so much for giving me this shit.
thank you.
aku appreciate giler.

On a happier note. 29th Sept 09 marks a new re-birth to the family.

mylove.

Lover

2009-09-28T23:53:00.001+08:00

mood: HEAD OVER HEELS
music: BROWN EYES-DESTINY CHILDS

im head over heels for you baby.
and tomorrow you will be coming home with me. for sure.
i hope abah and you will get along well.
:) its a new beginning.
goodbye old love.
i hope there isnt any grudges left.

Lebaran

2009-09-21T18:54:00.004+08:00

mood: RAYA'ing
music: SESUCI LEBARAN

Salam Lebaran Semua:)

Finally, a complete entry. How was your raya celebration people? Mine was superb/gerek/marvelous.com/sap. This year family decided to go on OFF-GREEN. Yup. Finally my family potrait. with two different grandparents. I don't quiet care anymore. I wanna make sure my family enjoys hari raya like other families do. So yeah. Dad has been marvelous to give idea to trade in for a new and better camera. Im a happy gobber. Bf was busy with his side of family. So i made myself busy. :) Yes. And most of my talks with my cousins brothers are about bike. Yup. a topic that i love to talked about. biasalaaa. besok working already. Insyallah. it will go well. I have already started on my puasa 6. Its just six days. No worries.

it has been a roller coaster ride for this family of mine. and finally a perfect family picture. almost perfect once we get baba's family in the picture. insyallah. the day will come. im happy that bit by bit, the picture is getting better. Nyai's side of family. Ibu/Mama/Baba. My Ibu being the oldest. Nyai has 9 grandchildren so far. And thats it i guess. Yes. A small family over by Nyai side. Insyallah. Soon, we will have a better family potrait. :)

A family photo with Atok. Yes. Some of you might not know, my grandparents from my ibu and my abah side is staying with us. From Abah is his father ( Atok ) and from Ibu is her mum ( Nyai ). Yes. So we had two different shots.

With Nyai. Im trying to get the best photo.:) Yes. Because nyai's face is so fierce laa sey.

Kelakar betul. And mum look as though she is my elder sister. hahahaha

So hot laa mother!

okay people. Sampai di sini saja.

Gambar yg lain sila ke fb untuk melihatnya.

Sinaran

2009-09-19T00:27:00.002+08:00

mood: BLOATED
music: SUASANA HARI RAYA

Admiration & Appreciation.
Dont have high expectation on a guy. Because at the end of the day, guys aren't the only ones who do all the hard work. But most importantly, dont complain if he doesnt done enough for you. That means you lack of giving him admiration & appreciation.

(took this from Piscaskus entry)

i guess im having my second thoughts regarding all that is happening. i just hope, in this syawal; things would get better somehow.

2009-09-16T23:23:00.000+08:00

BOSAN! MADANG TIDUR!

2009-09-07T22:19:00.003+08:00

mood: OVER
music: Hasbi Robbi-Syamil

Saturday was the awaited date for me and bcc. :)yes my dear, we are back together. head to Darul Ma'wa. just nice reached there before Arwah Traz tahlil. im speechless when the bacaan was read. sebak tak semena-mena. i guess it was really one of the times that i put 100% in the bacaan. after the short buka. the guys was given time for maghrib and smoke time-out. the girls get ready to prepare for 2nd round of food.

as i told you, the girls was busy cutting the murtabak. preparing the straberry pudding. superbly nice i tell you. but i was not in great health. after helping in the kitchen. bcc, me and hairil shared 1 plate of food. yup, itupun tak habis. after that the bacaan was lead by Taufik with wirit of Hasbi Rabbi. once again, i was really into it. the bacaan tusuk ke kalbu, i couldn't explain the syahdu with the bacaan lead by a 14 yr old kid and together with 80+ kids. you decide? sis angel/elmo/jie was all looking at me all of a sudden. because i had once asked the tittle of this bacaan. its really unexplainable. keinsafan datang sendiri. when you see how you are blessed with your parents around you. supporting/correcting/ there for you. menakjubkan. it was really a blessed day. stayed till bunga api. reached home by 1am. ate my medication and i was beat. i was down with fever, cough and flu was already present eversince thursday last week.

its a small world to know that my senior in secondary school was bcc ITE mate.
penat pusing satu singapore

.
imagine.? but this year i took one kid for the walked.
sesak dier tahun nie, tuhan aja yang tahu.

kelompok-kelompok volunteers that join strength to bring the kids out for jalan-jalan in bazaar geylang. alhamdulillha. SUCCESS.

bcc picked up with ready baju kurung melayu. and the comment he got from his mum is,
" mcm baju pengantin. "
tengoklah siapa yang pilihkan colour for him. pfft.

KESABARAN DI TAHAP MAXIMA

2009-09-03T22:29:00.002+08:00

mood: PATIENCE TESTED
music: TAKE A BOW-RIHANNA

Missy ah, Missy...
Missy ah, Missy...
Aiyaaaa! Missy ahhhh!

subhannallah. today was really something i had to go through without tearing up. yes, i have been a cry baby lately ( if you think tearing up once is a cry baby laa ). i was already to the end of my patience. my patient had this everytime we walked passed her.
complaints, complaints and more complaints:
- i very fussy ah missy
- can i have some water missy ( she is asking every 10 mins, and on fluid RESTRICTION )
- why you always ask me sleep
- why give me little of water, you so stingy
- i fed up la stay here

tell me, how am i suppose to live my life? thank god i have B in that cubicle with me. she is the one who listens to my whine. other than A who is just next door, and also of course P. im already not in my good health. coughing all the way. but buka BIG GULP COKE and Tau Suan today. Orang lain semua buka heavy-heavy.

till the next entry
cant wait for saturday iftar.

1st & 2nd

2009-09-01T22:06:00.002+08:00

mood: ON THE GO
music: TAUBAT- JIHAN

how did i spend my first and second day of attachment? alhamdulillah i overcomed it. my 1st day, its started with 8am till 4pm shift. basically abah and me had to report at the same timing. so each with our own bikes ride together, and since we are heading the same way. we rode together, only going our own ways at Police Academy.

my first was a drag. why? because the idea of having our ADON by 10 am to check on our knowledge of patient diagnosis & history. it was so obvious that we attacked the case file once our CI realease us to do our own duties. i swear my knees was aching. i guess it was because of to much standing at one place and nothing to be done.

however the 2nd day was better. me and B had a great time doing our job together. learning from each other. helping each other to finish our job ASAP. so far i must say, its how you look upon your attachment. if you forsee it to be DRAGGY, then it WILL be DRAGGY. insyallah. it will be okay.

thats all people. tomorrow would be the last AM shift for the week. :) heheheh sexcited gitu.
riding again tomorrow.

WEIGHT LIFTED OFF

2009-08-27T11:08:00.006+08:00

mood: ACHIEVEMENT
music: HASBI ROBBI-SYAMIL ( CREDITS: KAK HUDA )

what did i do after my last paper? the outing with class was marvelous. great happening stuff happend. i practically stayed up the whole day. with the tired and panda eyes, we went and spend our day at Marina Square. starts with bowling, followed by pool and lastly dinner aka BREAKFAST at PizzaHut. People like me, miss pan and hema was the first timers playing pool. it was difficult when you dont know what techniques to use. thanks to Hud/Naufal/Sister Loh im able to do it. and now im addicted to play it again.

lets plan another pool outing. lets go!

i practically hunchbacked my bebeh here.

:) thank you deary.

next was doing something that i have been wanting for a long time. niat nak belikan my mum something special for her. yes! alhamdulillah tercapai. on tuesday morning itself, me/nyai/ibu rushed over to bugis junction. yes ma'am. i let her do all the surveing from GUESS/CARLO RINO/ BONIA.

and i still wonder why ibu loves BONIA, i looked at the price tag. i told ibu, i tak mampu. so next we went to the GUESS outlet at bugis junction. the one beside Charles & Keith. she went in, and i guess she saw what she like. told her, dont look at the price.

yeah. ibu was scared that abah would give her a nag on the amount spend on the bag. i told her i would handle it. no worries. :)

so ibu was one happy superwoman that day.

i hope you love it ibu.

zoom in sikit......

the end of tuesday.

yesterday was to get another project done.
its done. im left with editting it nicely. heard abah wants to paint the hall.
if true needs to wait for the hall to be settle before we put this up for display.
one was this and another was besty's birthday gift.
yes i know its been 4 months dued.
aku punya pun aku lum receive eh.
Besty aku nak bag besar dari Charles & Keith bley?
dengan tak tahu malunya aku.

"_____________________"

MEREMANG BULU ROMA

2009-08-23T09:16:00.004+08:00

mood: PINGGANG SAKIT TIDUR KAT LANTAI
music: PRP SEMI's-SRW

on request by FizaTEK, here's the photo were niece straightened my hair.
now back to mugging for Nursing Management. tomorrow class outing. what to wear?

PUNGGOL

2009-08-22T21:05:00.006+08:00

mood: MUGGIN FOR NURSING MANAGEMENT
music: CARI JODOH-WALI BAND

this minah rxz went to Punggol tadi. of all places eh. takpe. nanti ku story. so, she decided to look up in the streetdirectory book. tengok road macam familiar and recall she had once follow amad/dayah/kiki teman amad ambek baju kerja. so, sms dayah. true enough blk sebelah-sebelah je. so my dear burger, kau tahu la kau leh hang out ngan sapa if you are bored at your sister's place.

back to why i was there, i went to fetch my 3 boxes of eclairs that became 2 boxes. why? i gave one to A before he went home to get his breakfast food ready. his mum went to johor i don't know why. dayah practically sms the whole route to this minah rxz here. almost lost laa eh, tapi make use to read the sign board. it does help tahu. otak ingat nak exit kat exit 9 je. nasib tak terbabas. thanks dayah. minah rxz ni says THANK YOU AH SISTER. hehe. so minah!

thats how i spend my first day. that doesn't include how my babyLOVE give me bitch fit on the way to chua chu kang. dier stall kat tengah-tengah traffic eh. nasib tak kena horn. alhamdulillah, minah rxa ni tak breakdown in tears. she prayed so bad that her babyLOVE treasures her like how she treasure her babyLOVE.

1down. 29more.

i want to make full use of it.

imy.

PRP '09

2009-08-22T13:24:00.002+08:00

mood: PAST
music: SINCE YOU'VE BEEN GONE

sunday was spend over with watching my ladies playing for the finals at Kampung Chai Chee CC.
rushed home from madrasah, because randi is riding along to bedok with me. yeah. i decided to ride there since i had madrasah. thank goodness the competition start 1/2 later than told.

wanted to join them for dinner at bedok, but rushed home since ibu had told ealier that we have a kenduri later that day. sMELLY ride back with me. and i guess she is my first pillion that ride along while it was raining heavily. takut jugak, but safety comes first. tak pernah-pernah bawak that slow. yup. thats my first.

yesterday my 1st examinable paper. alhamdulillah, all i can say is. the 2 pen with no more inks/>50 papers used to write ( memorising purposes) is all worth the pain. im left with one more paper to sit for and im done. yes, some have been asking how am i doing. alhamdulillah. i believe setiap yang berlaku ada hikmah disebaliknya if we CHOOSE to make that change.
bcc is doing fine. he is starting his practicals again 2 day of Hari Raya Puasa. i wasnt sure at first if what i had decide was a good decision. its improving. insyallah.

im off to punggol now.
eclairs here i come.

1 day left

2009-08-20T00:40:00.002+08:00

mood: HEADACHE
music: TARAK MUSIC

im left to sit for two final papers for my 3rd year. and the feeling now, its as though im sitting for 4 papers. subhannallah, the feeling that i went i go to sleep, i will regret sleeping early because i havent finish memorising. the feeling of wanting to stay up and memorise but end up sleeping.
inilah cobaan.
jijot came over today, hang around. it was fun having her around. basically we were talking about how our sisters are doing in school. how our parents lavish them too much on things that we both feel is not useful for the budak-budak. yeah. zaman dah berubah. now if you see, budak primary 3 have already the touch screen handphones. aku ni yang 19 masih handphoneyang jual takde value.
sungguh beruntung kan mereka-mereka semua.

come on safia, you only have two freaking papers left. and after that, you can rest all you want. this is that final lap safia, show them that dont believe you can made it this far. :)
this final run.
i wanna get it done, with FANTASTIC RESULTS.

cant wait for 5th sept.
meeting the kids soon.
kakak miss korang.

2009-08-18T23:22:00.001+08:00

mood: BRAINCELLS DEPLETION
music: BIG GIRLS DONT CRY

whatever assumption you have, i suggest you keep it to yourself. i wouldnt want to hear any of it.

ENOUGH ENOUGH

2009-08-17T20:53:00.003+08:00

mood: TEARING
music: COLLIDE-HOWIE DAY

guess this picture says much about the things that is happening around. enough said, yesterday was the mark of different angle of my life. yes. everything was as transparent that you can see it on my face. somehow i feel naked to even go out. yeah. whatever emotions im experiencing, it can be seen obviously.

okay. need to start on my study for my loves. selamat. a last goodbye to you.

HAVENT HEARD FROM YOU

2009-08-15T20:56:00.000+08:00

mood: MISSING YOU
music: IMY-AALIYAH

how long can it last like this? we havent had a decent talk with each other for awhile now. we havent been truthful to each other. why must it hurt so bad now? when i had decided, whatever comes, let it come. subhannalah. true enough, each relationship is not perfect. but for long can you last fighting all the time? truthfully, im hurt.

heading to Kampung Chai Chee CC tomorrow with R and B. the three of us is riding together there. yup. im off watching my girls performing and at the same time supporting PADUKA.
girls. senyum okay ayg kush. yang pukul-pukul, pukul saja. yang shake, do SHAKE it. :)

STRAIGHT HAIR

2009-08-14T22:03:00.002+08:00

mood: STRAIGHTENED
music: HERE WITHOUT YOU-3 DOORS DOWN

today marks the last day of school. and we are left with just two paper and we are off to complete the last hurdle to conquer our dream. fun as hell. we camwhored like nobodies business. yes like finally. we are letting myself go. yes love. its going to be over soon.
currently over at jaja's place. and guess what have changed? my niece started her magic. and here is the outcome of the magic. love it?

i would love some comments. i kind off like it though. a theraphy for the spinning i had earlier this day. must hang out often. maybe i should sleepover soon. please ignore the hideous face though.

wait.....

the end

SCREAM

2009-08-13T15:44:00.003+08:00

mood: NOT A PLEASANT ONE
music: -

whats else should i say? bike is the problem? what else?

i never did try to understand? understand what?

apa yang i never tried to understand?

girls are obvious,

when asked if their okay.

if the answer if yes, means they are not.

so whats with me? masalah nya pada aku?

wtf.

17months leh pi campak kat laot.

fullstop

NATIONAL DAY 44TH

2009-08-10T13:07:00.003+08:00

mood: HIGH
music: CARIK JODOH-WALI BAND

yesterday was hilarious. my emotions was in disaster.com/sap , yesterday the colour that we decided to wear was red. obvious. and i dared myself to wear the top that i bought at dp without the cardigan. why? it was a hot whether yesterday. i swear i aint gonna wear something that will make me sweat even more.

meeet bf at bukit gombak mrt. yup. yesterday before i went to get ready, ibu asked to hang the clothes out and make the cincau drink for abah. so yeah, i worked fast then suddenly this new song by Wali Band made me dance like nobody business. guess what? bf bought a new hp. thank eh bcc, geram je. part i buang duit you pot pet pot pet. :) nevertheless im happy, his old phone pun memang patut pie buang kat longkang terus. please take care of the new phone deary. remember how hard you worked to get the phone. ily.

1st was heading to Faizah's Apparel over at Joo Chiat Complex, member nak carik his baju. guess what, the Cekak Musang kind ada size for him. But the normal leher kind of baju kurung, takde size. one funny bf i have here. we have chosen the colour of his baju. im praying i got the correct kaler though. takut i got the wrong colour. finish with the baju hunting, next was getting lunch aka breakfast for him. yup head to the banquet nearby. he ate the lemon chicken rice while i ate the sambal. next was boarding the bus heading to vivo. but once we are there. hampa, we wanted to watch UP. bump into N, she was waiting for her bf. yup, everytime i bump into her at the same place. hehe. took 61 to bukit batok, practically rush to the movies to see if any of our favourites is available.

selamat. UP! gerek/kekek.com/sap i cant stop laughing. this time i didnt keep any of my laughs.
thank you for the great day spend. lets do it more often please d.

2009-08-05T13:13:00.004+08:00

mood: BALAK DAH LEPAS
music: RIGHT ROUND-FLO RIDA

(credits:jijot)

finally, yesterday was the most tormenting day ever. head to school with a big tennis bag as though im packed to run away from home. with fyp to think of, with nurm ws4 to think off. right after the presentation with the results given to us on the spot. B+, it was all worthwhile. the migraine. the fights with bf because of my own stupidity. nsl is over tu. finally. it was really over. there is no more fyp thing to brag over. im left with 2 examinable papers/1 individual essays. and i will say bye bye to year 3. subhannalah. alhamdulillah.

i miss going out with bf and just talk with each other without even screaming at him. aku ni temperamental betul. anyway, anak sedara is back. havent contact her. not sure if she is on home quarantine. :)

off to teach tuition.

FYP

2009-08-03T20:13:00.000+08:00

mood: TEARING UP
music: SHUT UP

i swear i feel like crying and im crying right now. the tension is pilling up. when i thought everything is going to be alright. subhannallah. sesungguhnya kau maha memahami. i swear, im ready to leave school soon. with fyp/2 individual assignment and 2 exam papers. im freaking ready.

turned 17th

2009-08-01T11:38:00.002+08:00

mood: SUPRISED
music: I LAY MY LOVE ON YOU-WESTLIFE

boncetcets turn 17th today. yup. i didnt realise it also. was up early, but i didn't realise today was the 1st of the month. went jogging with abah/bonch(irfan)/aisyah. boday was really putting on too much weight. next was cleaning the house before heading to Vicom to have my babyLOVE inspection. abah followed. i became pillion.:) seram oi. naik motor sendiri. once i reached there, dad settled the payment. i had to go through the procedure myself. nasib ada abah. the feeling was like as though i took exam. but all cleared. amin.

once money is in, thought of doing some change to babyLOVE. yup. waiting for abah's offer. :) fyp presentation is already nearing soon. wpd and nsl practical is on monday. ya allah. sakit jantung lah. after that im a free bonchet with only 2 exam papers to clear. dah. later nak pie teman besty and jijots beli barang. meeting them 1.30pm at Bukit Batok.

here is my message for that other bcc of mine.

de,

kau lilit cinta ku, dengan keindahan mu
kau lilit cinta ku, memberi nafas baru
thank you de.
when i wonder when can i have someone that;
appreciates me,
supports my dreams,
understanding,
iloveyou.
abdul azim abdul razak.
boncet-cet.
basketball.

cubit punatnya baru tahu.

love,
siti safiah md hassan
boncet ( gueh kurang boncet dari dier. so he is bcc )

2009-07-30T13:36:00.002+08:00

mood: EMOSHIT
music: KEMANA KAU MENGHILANGKAN DIRI-APIT

SLEEPING OVER AT JIJOT'S PLACE

2009-07-29T22:31:00.000+08:00

I HATE MYSELF!

terkurung

2009-07-28T23:33:00.000+08:00

mood: BURNING POCKET
music: HANYA KAU YANG MAMPU - AIZAT AF5

'harus nyatakan ku biarkan engkau pergi, membuat ku terkurung rasa ingin mati '

each and every lyrics of this songs made and impact to me, i wonder why is it so. im still searching for the answer. through enough. im feeling lethargic. what T said today was, if there wasnt stress they wouldnt have called it FYP. omg. i would want this to end fast. please ya allah.

i know i will miss school life. i know how i will miss singing in NSL classes. i know i will miss the dead brain cells after each NS5 tutorial. i know. but right now. sudah penat dong. bf is back to work after 6 days of mc. yeah. he is better now. what he told me via sms that his throat is not getting better and he has a bleeding nose suddenly. not thinking much, i told him maybe its the whether. if it worsen, told him to go to the doctor's. yeah. i havent had much things to say to him.

awaiting the arrival of anak sedare to singapore. please cepat-cepat habis kau peh quarantine, then we should go for a picnic okay. then jalan-jalan like two brats. okay anak sedare. aku rindu kau tahu!

love,
Sap

FYP/WPD

2009-07-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

mood: DONATING
music: I LAY MY LOVE ON YOU-WESTLIFE

my pictures is flooded with this bebeh of mine.lets meet Sandra aka Sandy aka BenNJerry aka DQ. yup. the one that always made me laugh and always calls me cute. guess just how much he makes me laugh all day. from the way she run to activate the code blue. so funny laa this one bebeh.

today had a meet up with T, discussing regarding our pending project. just guess im burning myself out. tomorrow im heading to outram to donate some blood and a bit of retail therphy at Vivo City. bf don't even know im heading there. i dont even think, whatever i say would give a shit to him. because, masuk telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri. penat lah penat!

i need to finish my WPD video soon. very very very very very soon. my blog seems dead as ever.
shopping with jijot & besty is gerekever.com/sap. we changed our place. sekarang kita sumbangs dah maju, lepak cityhall plak. hahahah lawak laa kita. :)

THE END

AWAY

2009-07-23T13:25:00.002+08:00

mood: RELAXED
music: WITH YOU-CHRIS BROWN

finally i can sit down and update my blog. credits to arun's MacBook. yes, we are going through our MegaCode. msg'ed bcc just now, but it seems macam im sms'ing him but he will reply only 1 hr later. geramnya aku. im praying the money will be debited inside my account. J! this weekend must go shop lah. okay?

fyp is giving myself a headache. because i don't understand it myself.
help.
help.
help.

leaving

2009-07-22T20:29:00.004+08:00

mood: MISSING

music: LASKAR PELAGI-NIDJI

bcc has been not in great health since the Sunday Piala Raja Panggung Competition. he has been coughing and doesn't look good. and he admit defeat on Tuesday night. he was shivering. he went to the clinic this morning, wanted to accompany him. however i had NURM class and video recording for WPD. was stunned that he received 6 days MC. get well soon deary. Jijot was planning to go shopping this saturday. money please come soon. im in need of new jeans.

i still have FYP presentation slides to complete, wpd video to edit, Nurm individual reflection and CT individual essay. Insyallah. nothing is impossible. i want to indulge with double choc please.

getwellsoon deary.
imy.

MR MENSES

2009-07-16T16:33:00.002+08:00

mood: IRRITATED
music: SAKIT HATI

guess what time i got home today? i got home 9.15am. subhannalah, no i did not merayap okay. i sleptover at J's place. finishing my introduction for FYP. thanks to H for helping me. im really tired. i can feel my body ache everywhere.

bf is having his practical also today. :) i know. im praying that he gets his licence before the raya. lets be hopeful. today, im riding with ami. and yesterday was chatting with F over at msn. to plan a riding outing the people that got their license. includes the one with the car license. macam convoy laa kan. so insyallah, soon ah. soon.

ALIEN DOG

2009-07-15T15:33:00.003+08:00

mood: MUGGING
music: BREATHE SLOW

yesterday sent I home after dikir training. however we were in the expressway when suddenly my bike decided to make a stunt of itself. yes my babyLOVE don't you dare do it again. kesian I semalam. but alhamdulillah, sampai jugak kat rumah before 11pm. thought of dropping by BBDC and tengok how bf was doing with his practicals. but member sekarang dah bagus, selalu bawak kereta keluar. alhamdulillah, lets just wait for him to achieve his driving license before i enrolled for mine. i suspect, i will achieve my 2A license even before my Class 3. M, all the best okay for 14 Aug. Kamu bisa punya!

today im meeting bf before heading to sembawang for tuition with Tisya. tapi its just a short meet. he have to go over to his grandmother's place to angkat barang-barang. whatever it is, im hoping im able to spend quality time with him on Sunday and Monday. okay d? Set!
tomorrow is the selection for the team playing for the Sunday competition. Bismillah.

GOLF EYES

2009-07-13T16:40:00.002+08:00

mood: NUTS

music: GILA GILA

Thats what we did when we had a camera on BOARD. all hell broke loose. we done our part in practising it during NSL. next was exercising our facial and body muscles for pictures. yes. my idea to do different candid shots credits to A for taking it flawlessly. saturday was something i don't want to ever happend again. enough of all the tears and sedihness.

meeting bf later for dinner before dikir training at kampung melayu. my goodness, finally im meeting him? yeah. whose fault? ask that bonchet ah. anyway, i cant deny yesterday training was tough for me. why? i was the last to get things right. i felt the pressure of having good awok with me. STRESS dok. anyway, im suppose to finish my introduction in 1 hrs time. im going kuku with all this stuff.

bf, ku kangen sama kamu.

DIKIR

2009-07-11T12:27:00.002+08:00

mood: LOST
music: HEARTBREAKER

yesterday was off to training at Temasek Polytechnic. it was really a new experience. satu hujung ke satu hujung. pantat seba. muai going for the training, went once through the ragam. alhamdulillah. insyallah, kita beri yang terbaik kita akan dapat yang terbaik. i have a feeling i won't be selected during the selection though. i'm not sure why. i guess because my left hand is giving me that problem.

yes, bf is being a jackass. mangkuk tuls. i can't stand him. we were suppose to watch Bujang Lapok at Singapore Museum yesterday but instead he wanted to stay home because his grandmother was staying over his place. when i decided to go for training, he told me not to go. why? because his mum and his granmother decide to go shopping. PADAN MUKA U!
geram betul, then kan blame me for cancelling. thanks.

Love;

2009-07-09T17:57:00.006+08:00

mood: HURT AGAIN
music: LIKE A ROSE-A1

these few days, had dinner with bcc in school. :) yes, i love our short dinner dates. it was basically a short one where we shared stuff on daily basis. yup. since im busy with dikir training ( both adiratna [i love the adiratna juniors, you rock lah!] & stw )/FYP/tuition and bf is busy with Practical lessons. That's our photo together during the TugOfWar games. It was magnificent day. Pasal, we spend quality time together, doing something as a team. Yup! tak menyesal langsung. are we siblings? is he my long lost elder brother?jgn mimpi, abdul azim.
kita sayang awak many-many love. thank you for being there eventhough im always asking for trouble.

Lets just say, bf is already pissed off enough with that N.yesterday met bf for dinner before heading for dikir training. thats when i told him how pissed i was regarding N attitude. im trying my best not to take things that i knew to heart. sumpah, i don't go for people's things. you can stop telling others that im after it. kecewa is a good word to describe how i felt. the only thing in my mind now is BESTY/ACHI/JIJOT/JAJA/JIE. yes. i miss korang right now. lets go out, soon enough. Ja, kau cepat balik boleh tak.

Thats my Jie. :)

GOPENG

2009-07-02T18:22:00.003+08:00

mood: RECALLING
music: YOU ARE NOT ALONE-MJ

GOPENG IPOH ADVENTURE TRIP

Day-1

Nothing much. Basically we spend our day travelling via bus to the campsite. With stops in between. However, one thing was an eye opener. We went to the WATERFALL. Gerek per!!
The feel of water current pulling you down. It was really something.And we brought the rain along with us.We were tired. My aim was to do all the activities and go off my comfort zone. Being stubborn in the brain and going without even meeting BCC. I guess this is the longest trip i had left him.

Day-2

Start our day with breakfast and proceeding to the rafting area via LORRY. Lupa nak bilang, our only accomodation out of the campsite was the LORRY. Yup, gerek wo! Yes the morning breeze that you seldom get in Singapore. Fuh. Our breifing was done by Hafizi aka Mus aka David Beckam ect. The thing that keep him in your mind is his unbelievable language and way of pronouncing his words. We were then equipped with our vest and helmet. Like usual, i'm always afraid there isn't any size available for me be it for the life vest and the helmet. Alhamdulillah, ader beb! We started with the individual floating to the water with current. i thought my Silver could help me prepared for the swim. Its not people, its different swimming in the pool compared to the river that has CURRENT pulling you.

After that, we then spilt to our event. White Water Rafting ( WWR ). My group comprises of Mr Rush, Hafiz, Rosemarie and Charlotte. It was hilarious. First Rosemarie fell into the river. But i was the one bruised by that event. Up till now, the bruise is still visible. It was one hell of a ride. Gerek!
Second round please. And we practically raft back to our campsite.

After our lunch, we head down to the High Elements segment. Subhanallah. Sumpah gueh takut gila. We were separated into three group. Group 1 ( Beginners ), Group 2 ( Intermediate ) and Group 3 ( Pro ). I went for the Group 2. Subnallah. I was really scared. I dragged Miss Shree during the event. It was really heart ranching. But once im done with it, i feel the sence of achievement and did what i wouldnt have done if im back in Singapore. My self motivation to myself is, " If Botak ( one of the big size instructor ) can do it, so can i ". Botak was cute actually. Miss Shree didnt complete Group 2. However, she did Group 1 which i think was way harder than the Group 2. Wonderful. We all hugged each other once we finished our high elements. Rest well for the next day.

Day-3

Today, a new day. All the bruises from yesterday's event came out. Scary. Muscles are all screaming asking for massage. Next would be going for Gua Tempurung for hiking. And i thought yesterday's event was hard. Today was worst. We had to climbed the stairs. Mak oi, semput. It was much terrifying than yesterday. My self confidence dropped to NIL once i saw with my own eyes that Hariani fell during the sliding down. I was petrified. Mr Rashid was there. My friends were there. Ms Shree was there to motivate and support me down. Dol and Zarif was extremely concern of my safety. Even Lokman who i seldom talked to asked if i was okay. Yes, this shows something. Amin yang kiter takutkan, aku yang melalak. Buat lawak tuls.

Once we are done, we stopped to dry ourselves and crash for lunch. Next up was the Hot Water Spring. Mangkuk, gerek giler! Ada slide. Gerek!!! Kecoh per. Kita semua buat macam-macam slide. And imagine the locals were looking at us as though we were some kind of Aliens which just saw the Swimming Pool.

Next was head up for campsite. It was our last day in camp. And Durians were waiting. Heheh. Lawak. And night we had the Laughing Theraphy and The Drumming Sessions. The Laughing Session was about learning to chill out and take a minute off.
" Bery Good, Bery Good, Yey! "
It was really a one hell of a MARVELOUS. I didn't regret leaving home/family/friends for this trip. It was worth while.

Thank you:)
Sap sayang korang.

Happy Belated 16th Months BCC.
Thank You. And i hate A.
PS: Panjang giler post

MY DAYS

2009-06-22T11:04:00.002+08:00

mood: SPANKING GREAT
music: STOMACH GRUMBLES

tumpang lalu... tumpang lalu....
sorry sejak computer ku dirumah crash untuk ke 289237793794 kali. i gave up on going to people's place just to check on things online. i have been spending my weekends with jie and leedya playing sports. like i said, berat badan gueh dah naik mcm rocket.
yesterday head down to Darul Ma'wa for a super friendly netball game with the Ma'wa girls. finally ader jugak peluh-peluh sihat yang turun.
no i didn't ride there. Maybe next week when im going for the Darul Ma'wa Charade, i will be riding there.

im heading to adiratna's training later. i miss banyak orang. banyak i mean. entahlah. sometimes i wonder what am i after in life. okay, SRW training is starting this wednesday. Kicks, yuk ride pegi Paya Lebar.

2009-06-17T20:07:00.002+08:00

mood: HAPPY BEAR
music: LOVE LOVE

meet my new baby love. yes, buat yang masih tak tahu. i have my own ride. tapi yang teruk, aku tak tahu mana nak jalan. hehehe. thanks ah. burger! yuk pegi riding. anyways, alhamdulillah that my wish is granted. eventhough my baby is already 9 years old. hehehe takper, akan ku lanyak rabak-rabak.

BESTY, apa kata kau standby helmet. motor aku takder box tau, so be prepared.

nama apa akan ku beri kepada new love gueh ini.

CAMERA - BOYFIE

BF - BCC

MOTOR - BABY LOVE?

BERY HAPPY GIRL

2009-06-16T13:04:00.002+08:00

mood: HYPER ACTIVELY INVOLVED
music: FLOW'S NAGS

my new loved has arrived. thank you to my dearest cousin brother. Abg N. yessar! but im just extremely scared to bring my baby-L out. yes yes. macam korang tak paham aku laa kan.

anyways, im bringing baby-L out to meet BCC today. IF jadi. so pray hard it doesn't happend, cause im plain scared. shitless.

LAST PAPER

2009-06-12T15:48:00.002+08:00

mood: BERGEMBIRA TEPOK TANGAN SAMA-SAMA
music: LETS GO

Firstly,
HAPPY 50th BIRTHDAY ABAH!
kakak sayang abah banyak tahu. I will be a souless human leaving if you aint with us.
moga Allah berikan abah segala kesihatan yang tak terhingga.
jangan marah-marah selalu.

Updates!
My helmet is already up and ready for display soon.
Thanks to orang-orang yang berkenan kerana membantu. Now i need to run for abah's helmet on sunday. im praying hard that the shop opens lah.
kalau tak bukak, aunty tu memang mintak kena burger ngan aku. so yeah, abah and me is surveing the bike. yup, my dear father yang macam lagi excited dari aku. i think he is worried that i will spoil his chopper.

my relationship? biasa jugak. norm, always have its ups and down. and aku ader futsal game this sunday. kimek badan naik berpoun-poun sia. dah lama tak exercise. mangkuk tul.
anyways. i will update soon.
ni pun waiting for gopeng briefing at 5.15pm.
salams semua.

TENSION RELAXER MAGIC

2009-06-07T12:52:00.004+08:00

mood: TENSION MUGGING
music: KANTOI

yesterday was i bet the best laughing gases. eventhough we went out for practically 4 hours only. with 1 hour of shop hunting with M and S. with random shots with S and buttons popping session. it was really one hell of a day. me being choosy about the colours, and getting to know that the number choose was actually has it crude meaning. we head to bugis street after the 1 hr session of choosing & printing. M and S was famished, i had my dinner at home before meeting them. so i bought BIG GULP instead. thirsty giler!

i guess going out with me was really something, why? because i bet they were home early yesterday. :) meet BCC before i head home. yup after 1 week. this wasn't the worst, but it still made an effect. we were talking for only 20 mins. yes, a supershort meet up. showed him what i bought earlier. he was okay with it. says our goodbye and hug before i dashed home.
my solats not even complete for yesterday. asar and maghrib gone. how am i suppose to be a good muslimah? i wonder.

that was how i spend saturday.

today i woke up at 5.50am, to a super scary nightmare. subhannallah. i can still feel the kids presence. i guess i was to engross with the sign and symptoms of MI that i dreamt of 2 kids with features of bluish skin. imagine that! subhannallah. told BCC, dier pun terperanjat. continued to memorise and understand my NS5 notes. and did i tell you readers, Ms L for Monday CT was at Bugis and tap my shoulder and said " Never study ah? ". tergamam aku sekejab. so i must show her i did.

i decided that i want to stick with the number. yes. ibu was okay with it. told M that i need sum stuff. insyallah if dapat than i can finish designing it soon. okay now im off to continue revising my NS5.

HONDA CBR 150 CC

i want it in RED though.

Please come soon.

PS: M i want the pictures. thanks korang!