mood: ALHAMDULILLAH
music: IBARAT NYA TINTA

Okay. within 2 days. im done with year 2. im done with all the politics. im done having much enemies. lelah. This is the negative side of poly life which i don't even know existed.
Sesungguhnya, makin lama sekolah, the more obvious it become.
Okay, jie/elmo/breepoks will be coming this sunday. bf coming with ogy. yup, suspension jantung gueh. but insyallah. something new to experience and to summarise my year 2.

so sudah.

mood: UNSURE
music: SAME

Sorry for the lack of updates. somehow i dont think my entries are being read by anyone.
Siti Safiah Md Hassan turned 19th on 22Feb2009. yes she turned 19th sudah. how was my birthday ? alhamdulillah. eventhough i spend like half of my day at PERDAUS(Bedok), there was a small mini celebration over at my house. Pizza is what was served.

Thank you for all that wish, i dont think i need to right names of people that wished. Thank you guys. Aku tengah menghafal, korang buat gueh tersenyum. Thank you very very much. :) I guess this year's birthday is the birthday that i cant do much. be it going out/even celebrating it. Why? i have a paper the next day. stressful. Actually macam nak nangis. Everytime i see the word nangis, macam terngiang Irma say, " Nangis jer, Jangan nangis lah sapp".

nevertheless. 1 paper down. 2 more to go.
ks, thank you for the present. tak perlu laa aku pakai untuk honeymoon :).
bf, thank you for the present. i know you already plan to buy that way before.
ibu tanya, " kau serious ngan azim? ". answer?

Labels: 2 papers.

mood: FEEL LIKE SWALLOWING NOTES
music: AIRMATA

thats is what i feel right now. at one moment i know i have the things done on time. yet once again i misjudged myself. why? u tell me why. is it fair?
everything between me and bf is one the verge of crashing down to the groud. yes, i know. entah, confuse. the more i try to cool myself, the more things happend just to make things worst.
i leave it to HIM to decide. im tired of fighting for something that maybe not meant to be mine.

anyone can teach me how to memorise faster? im a slow learner in memorising. help! NS4! i'll die soon. tuhan ajer yang tahu.

Labels: 2 days left

mood: KETENANGAN
music: ONE STEP AT A TIME


guess my fingers are getting numb with all those writings. shuts. notes done but i have yet to memorise any of it.


help people. aku dah mula procastinating ni. Irma & Kiki is having their paper besok. Korang all the best k. Jgn gabrah, relax baca bismillah and do it. :) dont ask about bf, why? because he is at home sleeping. so jgn tanyer. tak kuasa.


before i end today's entry let me wish someone a happy birthday.

Labels: salams. 3 days left

Labels: 4 days left

mood: TEARS & EXHAUSTION
music: TOGETHER-NEYO

Tii! Happy 21st Birthday!

Saf wish awak all the best in life okay teacher. Stay happy always okay deary. And kita miss awak banyak-banyak. Kita need a lot of hugs.

One after another, emotions are hard to control nowadays. tuhan aja tahu how i feel right now. i want to sleep it off so i will wake up with a clear mind. but weird, my eyes arent willing to shut it off. however different things happend, which is tears became that faithful companion for past two days. yes, took out my album and photos i've collected eversince i started poly life.

cried everytime i look at the memories. i know it should have been smiles and laughter that kept me going. but yes, tears are the companion. the bond between me and abah. the bond between me and friends. the bond between me and bf. the bond between me and adiratna. the bond between me and ma'wa. mcm retak menanti belah.

ya allah, sesungguhnya aku hamba yang hina. kau terangi hidup ku ini dengan kesabaran and kekuatan untuk aku hadapi semua ini yang allah. kau jauhkan aku dari hasad, dengki, iri hati dan tamak. sesungguhnya ya allah, kau yang maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang. amin.

Labels: 8 days left

mood: A SIGH OF RELIEF
music: MORE THAN WORDS-Westlife




Yesterday went for RC and my 6th 5.02. Alhamdulillah. Eventhough i didnt made it. I knew i had great improvement done. With 8 demerit points, no more problem with abrupt in lane changing. i failed due to the fact i almost caused an accident ( immediate failure ). So not to wait any longer, i booked today training. As usual, 1 RC followed by my 7th 5.02 lesson.


I was 20 mins late for my RC training. Subhannalah, i still decide to go and ahead to have. its 100 mins training. loosing 20 mins is not a problem. im still left with 80mins. so yes, i did all the best i could. finished my RC at 11.30 am. Next was to wait for my 5.02 at 12.20pm. I was trying to calm myself. Alhamdulillah. I cleared it. 8 demerit points. with 10 students, 2 being the ladies both taking the 7th time and the 8 was boys. only 2 made it.


Im happy, tears of happiness. yes. I know, i need to concerntration on my EXAMS and my madrasah. Yes. to those who is taking practical 5.02, please be calm and never give up. Okay dearest. It will pay off. im heading to buy my pdl on Monday. Insyallah. after that pdl & bike aside. Exams here i come. Mug mug mug.

N, thanks for the long talk yesterday. biar la orang buat kiter, maybe kiter pun ader salah dan silap. lets mug together and head to year 3 bebeh. ;) Enjoy the day with bf deary. i syg you deep/deep.



Happy Valentines Day!
I dont celebrate it.
But its my first valentine with someone special.
And i gain something for Valentine.
Bf, eventhough i hate you the first time i met you.
Bf, eventhough im irritated by everything that you do.
Bf, eventhough i hate you for being bossy.
i know, you have been there for me.
thank you for this 11 month and 14 days of being there for me.

We celebrate soon.



Sumbangs, outing will be on the 28th Feb 09.
Meet at 2.30pm at Bukit Batok Mrt Platform.

Labels: 9 days left.

mood: STRESS.com
music: KU MERINDUI

i miss him. yes i do. alot alot. but once he is in front of me, whatever he does make me mad. very confusing. he was really pissed with me yesterday. the msg today, told me that i really went overboard.

" semalam terus terang d binget tak tahu asal. kalau d tk kawal perasaan d semalam... b da kene sepak dari d semalam "

imagine that? ya tuhan. im sorry.

mood: ONCE MORE
music: SAY GOODBYE-CHRIS BROWN

let me state this clear,
i had enough of it. im in no regrets. goodbye.

Labels: 11 days

mood: TEMPER

Labels: 12 days

mood: KANGEN
music: GRADUATION-Vit C

here i am. once again. im sorry for the lack of update. and i have a feeling nobody would even read my entries. and yes was having a quiet a roller coaster week. alhamdulillah its within control. firstly, i want to wish a SUPER HAPPY BIRTHDAY to two of my girls. One from SUMBANGS & another from KS.

Nurul Sakinah turns 19th on 7th Feb. One strong headed girl. Known her from Sec 2. Thats how many years eh achi? 5 years? Well done girl. All the best in future endeavours achi. :) Cepat-cepat ambek car licence. So the whole SUMBANGS leh gi outing gerek-gerek. Cant wait for 27th meet up with all of you. Once again Happy 19th Birthday Achi !

Nur Hayuun turns 19th on 8th Feb. Baik Chu Nek Mek! Hey HappyFeet. Stay strong dearest. Maybe im not as strong as you are in life. Insyallah, everything will go well. This path seem rough. Susah-susah dahulu, Senang-senang kemudian. Happy 19th Birthday Happy Feet !

Next would be updates on yesterday event. anyway i had my 5.02. so dont ask about it. i really need my confidence. Itik always been there encouraging. nevertheless, im really blessed with both parents encouraging. bf that never fails to say dont give up. if failed, its just u need more practice. Head down to Ma'wa after training. After so long, met with the kids there. i knew dhilah fell in love with the kids. Nadia, Iqah, Ana ( the so ever cute baby girl that i carried during Iftar ), Danial, Amri, Shahil, Farhan, Fahmi. wow. Terubat windu. For achit's, there is a new for him. Abg Achit Senget ( why? because the ragam. and the kids were enjoying it ).

Bowling was superb. And the funniest of all, i wanted to save the bowling, aku yang tergelicir dalam bowling alley. ya allah. malunya tuhan ajer yang tahu. hehe. until now, my left hand wrist is still painful. i realise it when i was in the bus going back to Darul Ma'wa with the kids. subhannallah. Balik terus demam. Sorry my dearest Sidekicks. Im super sorry aku kebuihan lagi. This morning, i also skipped madrasah. why? i woke up at 8 am feeling feverish.

Bf is out with family, i guess celebrating HappyFeet's birthday. Im not sure why, but i really hugs. i need my friends hugs of encouragement, friends hugs to relieve the pressure im going through. subhanallah. next would be retaking my 4th 5.02. need more practice, i saw my primary school friend there. guess who? Itik said it was Faizul. No way! its Webb Wesley. Haha yes yes, the mat-salleh celups. he came up talking to me. took me awhile to register. at least he didnt step tak kenal.

so that ends my day. ibu and aisyah it out visiting Cik Along's Mother-in-Law at the Jamiyah's Home at West Coast. Abah resting in his room. Here i am ending my entry soon and back to revising for NSL and exams that is freaking nearing.

i miss jie. i miss besty. i miss sumbangs. i miss bf. i miss laughing and talking to abah.

Labels: 15 days

mood: ACHIEVEMENT
music: SITI DONT GIVE UP

congratulations to dearest. he able to pass his BTE for the 2nd time with 96%. however the sad thing is, he is unable to book his BTT within 14 days. kesian boncet-cet. congratulations d. i'm so proud of you dearest.

i had my 2nd practical of 5.02. guess what i got? 12 demerits. wow! super proud can? but i since i drop the last cone in pylon course, it was immediate failure. so total 14 points. but im proud. imagine. 40 points and 14 points. even bf was supporting. told ibu after the practical, she told me take again. told her i have no more cash to spare. she told me to speak to abah. i dialled his number after procastinating.

abah spared me $100 for the bike license. thank you abah. i know im a bad bad bad daugther. but i know you will always be there.

booked the next 5.02 tomorrow at 8am. pray for me people. sesungguhnya, i really want this license so bad. insyallah. i will give my best.

ps: pakai baju kancing nya suasa, pakai suasa kancing nya baju

Labels: 16 days

mood: NS3 MODE
music: SERIBU MALAM

reached school for Ns3 lecture today. Super fast lecture. i was prepared for the fracture lecture. i had read it before attending the lecture. im taking my time off from NS3 now to blog. im in the list of the few people that is the weakest in Ns3. i'm doing my best to buck up. nothing seems to work now.

Lets help me recall some that i had memorised:
5 Sign & Symptoms of Hypothyroidism and Interventions
Nervousness - Antianxiety Medication ( Valium )
Decreased Heart Rate - Administer Levothyroxine
Edema - Elevate extremities to reduce edema
Weight Gain - Plan excercise and extended rest
Neurological Impairment - Perform Neurological assessment

5 Signs & Symptoms of Hyperthyrodism and Interventions
Palpitations & Tachycardia - Beta Blockers
Heat intolerance - Provide fan to patient
Weight Loss - Provide nutrition high in calories
Fine hand tremors - Assist in ADLs
Hypertension - Antihypertensive Medications

i will die of lack of space in my brain to sumbat all these and more information. but takpe, its going to end soon enough.
will be taking 5.02 on friday. yes. im scared. like my friend advise me, enjoy the prac and relax yourself. sometimes i also wonder what im scared of. i want to continue revision now. and to the rest. please stay happy dearest. xoxo.

Labels: 19DAYS

mood: TEMPER
music: IT'S MY LIFE

i hate you for making my girl cry.
i hate you for making her sad.
i hate you for not being firm with your decision.
i hate you for being like O.

refrain yourself from giving others hope and the attention. and when she begans to fall, you back away. why must you make us look like fools? why the need of backing away if you know thats her heart is with you?
to J, do stay strong. I will always be there for you deary. I'm here for you.

Labels: 20days

mood: HEADACHE
music: NONE

our 11th monthsary was the worst ever. yes. i cant understand why, even the small matter that i didn't told him. it will become a big issue. and its until i make that irritating/cantbebothered face. he will then stop his nuisance. and blame me for being offensive?

i need a space.com/sap. seriously. went for RC just now. i need to improve on my S course and Crank Course. i'm not sure why. but when i took it at 4.02. it was okay. im going again for my RC tomorrow at 4pm. selagi im not confident of myself. im not going for 5.02 yet.

i finish all the theory lessons. damn it was super mengantok. except for my BTL 1.01. the instructor so very the funny. guess who? Fakhri's dad laaa.
Hahah sooo funny giler. Pecah peruts listen to how he conducts the class. bf also starts his 1st practical classes.

ps: im sleepy.

Labels: 21days to Exams