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i guess like what naddy had fully typed on her blog, life in poly/any educational institute will be different from what you expect it to. why? because you are meeting with wide range of people with complicated characther/problems/attitude/backgroud. basically just way different.

back in secondary four, achi/me/besty had always plan to build a company with basically all within our diploma scope. since achi is interested in CHILDREN. besty is mostly interested in IT. and at that point of time, i was confident i could make it in ACCOUNTS. so we planned to open up a childcare. with different strength. yup that is what make up really strive to get the best out of poly life. and alhamdulillah, achi & besty made it to their respective course, while me, myself and i took something beyond my dream. nursing.

what i told myself is that, if you have the interested and commitment to make and do something. everything that is impossible will be possible. eventhough at times it takes years. the 1 year in ngee ann had really beeen a roller coaster ride. knowing some of them during the orientation. the first few i have known would be, arun, ameera, naddy and razak. basically i and naddy clicked so well the first time we met. though i was afraid to even say hi to her. i guess arun would remember the first impression about me. i was basically wearing bermudas, t-shirt, slippers and army backpack. so yeah. what ? tomboy. i was insecured.
slowly, ruz, ayu, sha, huda, patrick, aishah, farah, shikin, fattanah, flow, weiling, estella, zena and etc. slowly, and slowly things gets rocky. each of us our flaws. none was perfect. i guess poly life will end bad when you can adapt to the changes / stand on your own.

next was getting close with the MCC babes& dudes. i guess i was actually that pendiam/taksukasenyum member of adiratna. mel/irma/farah/perm/batik/kiki/carry all were the kecoh group. everytime heading to dikir would be stressful. but slowly, we clicked. and finally dah macam biasa. jumpa will hug each other. its no different from the rest. you meet people with different backgroud and problems. yup.

on a greater note poly life teach you how the outside world would be. the 1st step of outside world. getting yoursefl geared up with ways to handle with different situations.

next would be having bf in the picture. never in a million years, i would ever dream of getting attached to my friend's brother. susah.com.sg. but i did, besty & achi always disturb me with the statement that i will be the 1st one between the sumbangs to get married. choi. insyallah tak. i have lots of plans & things to achieve before i settle down. having bf around, its weird. its been awhile since i was attached. after breaking up with L. i have negative view over the word MAN.
next was getting to know differences, comparing each of the guys i made friends with. tak salah berkawan, tak salah ada ramai kawan. with S/O/R, these 3 really made an impact on my life. next was bf, i wasn't his first girl. jie & naddy knew how i felt. even mel/tek/mak. they knew. mel knew most about O, because the peak moments happend during training. right melly?

i'm happy to say, eventhough i went through a period of some low moments in my life. what i will gain from poly life is treasuring the some that is within my reach. learning on life matters which we are unable to learn in lecture halls.

ps; thank bcc. having faith & courage to stay on with me. ana uhibbuk fillah.

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