mood: DOWN
music: SORRY SEEMS TO BE THE HARDEST WORD-WESTLIFE

I'm suppose to be celebrating my New Year with Jijot & Jie. There goes my plan for this last part of 2008. I went for my 4th Trial for my 3.01. It started well. I was confident of myself. My instructor was superb. I even encourage one of my friends. Saw Saiful ( Besty's Primary School Friend ), he is already in Practical 5.01.


By the end of the session, i feel good of myself. Alhamdulillah i passed it. Seriously happy, excitedly took out my hp. 1 sms received.
" Kakak, abah marah kakak. Kakaknya hp bill 400+ "
Mati, i was in seriously deep shit. I went blank. I could think of is abah waiting for me in the kitchen. Hitting the dining table and screaming to throw the computer at me.


I was crying all the way. I finish bathing. I finish solat. I didn't hold my dinner. I slept early. Abah still didn't talked to me. Today, he came home with ultamately stern look. I know he is angry. All i could think of myself, i have been a burden to him. All this while, he haven't been taking breakfast/lunch at work just to save up to buy things for us. And here i am, wasting money on things that shouldn't be. Ya allah. That's my start of the new year. Further more, he had been aiming on me for long time. Basically for coming home late and frequent outing. In conclusion, im basically grounded.

Labels: my new year.